ETERNAL

Her Christmas

2010-12-26T21:58:00.000-08:00

She sat her front door steps, looking into the street of lights. Children passes by with gifts begs, adults holding their hands swinging happily singing those Christmas songs. She looks at them with admiration, seeing those happy faces she sat with sorrow in her heart. A cold wind blew across her face freezing her; she folded her arms tightly around her chest to comfort herself. A glass broke in the house; she looks inside the window finding her parents arguing again. Her father had thrown a picture frame down at the floor, screaming at her mother both again fight till bruises and scars. She covers her ears and eyes, wishing that everything will go away from her. It continued and draws the attention from the neighbors and passer by. She looks at them with disgust and hatred. You don’t have to peep! She screams in her mind. She stood up can’t stand the fight and screams, she kicked the door real hard creaking the wood. Her parents and neighbors look at her.

“ENOUGH! THAT IS ENOUGH!” she screams towards her parents. She turns around and looks at the neighbors. “DON’T LOOK! IF YOU ARE NOT PLANING TO HELP! DON’T LOOK AND GO HOME!” she ran down the street not looking over her shoulder or even to stop for a breath. She keeps on running down the street ending up at the lake side. The lights beside the lake shine brightly, lighting up the while area. She sat at the park bench looking far across the lake side. She clenched her fist together praying. I know you can hear me. All I want is a nice home, and a quiet Christmas like any other family. Please I ask for your angels to come and heal this family for me. She looks up again to the sky.

“I guess this will be another Christmas with the same silent I get every year.” She stayed there the whole night looking into the darkness of her heart.

My dear Friend

2010-12-22T20:48:00.001-08:00

Dear friend,

Sitting at the side of the walk, as the snow flake falls to the ground, what a wonderful sight to see! Couples passes by, holding hands with sweet comments. (You gonna love this view) Yet I sit here alone thinking, why am I in the world like that? How I miss her back in our olden days, where we run around the park bullying kids. How I miss the sight of her smile, as she run wild like the horse in the movie.

Years has pass, as you grown into such a wonderful women, maybe a little tomboy but still you shine like the sun in my world. I remember the time in the playground, where there were boys who always pick fight on me; you rush towards them with nothing but your fist. Blood spatter around your face and clothing, yet you smile at me telling me everything is alright. Ah…that face of yours make me laughed till my stomach hurts like shit.

My dear friend back in my hometown, how have you been? I guess you must be surrounded by boys now with your look. Haha, I think things will always turn out right for you. But this year snow I wish they aren’t white but red. Those blood red snows will remind me of you, always defending me with all you’ve got.

P.S. I will be back on MAY!!!! Remember wear that jean I bought for you!!!! We gonna rock the night world!! Can’t wait to meet you my friend.

With all the kisses in the world, to you my lovely friend, C.

Never ending road

2010-08-02T07:25:00.000-07:00

She stare at the clouds

Hoping to see the stars

As the first star shines,

The cloud cover the sky

She looked up again

But her vision blur

For tears covers her eyes

In sorrow and sadness

The rain falls down

Covering her tears

She stood there thinking

Her pain will flow away with the rain

she stood there for an hour plus

finally stepping into the shade

she kneel on the floor

her hands on her chest

she screams in pain

she squeeze her chest

till her nails dung into her skin

the pain she felt

awaken her from her sleep

she screams again

to the sky above

shouting to Him

for His punishment she didn't deserve

she stare into space

in her mind the never ending road

till the day she burst

she will always remain as a shadow

with thousand emotion

under that mask of hers.

Shadow 2 {2}

2010-06-15T20:11:00.001-07:00

Suzy slowly open her eyes, as the sun shines down at her through the window. She moves slowly thinking her bed was too comfortable to wake up. She stares at the room 4 times larger than her own room, the kind size bed with the cloth she loves. She looked around amaze at the same time scared. The silent knock on the door startled her, a man walk into the room with a few other girls’ behind him. He stares at her for a moment, his eyes searching for something but yet no been found yet.

“Miss, welcome home.” he bowed showing her respect. He chuckle as he look at her face. “Miss, please don’t put that stern look on your face. It is making me laugh with your messy hair over your head.” Suzy blush as she saw herself in the mirror. “My name is Joe, I am the butler in this mansion, if there is anything you would like to ask please tell Me.” he smiled at her signaling the maids to change her cloths, he turns he back walking out towards the door.

“Joe,” her voice as soft as a ghost whisper, makes the back of his hair stands. “May I know who is the one that brought me here.” Her eyes like puppies like eyes, staring into his eyes.

“You will meet him when sunset; he will be home at that time.” Joe again bowed as he walked out from the room. [She looks so different than the past…] he thought in his mind. Suzy steps into the bath full of hot water like the hot spring. She soaked herself in it thinking about the man who took her last night. Samantha image appear again as her tears flows down, she sobs her way in the bath hoping that her sister will come again.

Jenard stood there clicking his nails waiting for Suzy at the school gate. [Where could she be??] He panics in his mind. He saw a big black Mercedes car stop at the gate, as the driver walked down to open the back door, his eyes widen. Suzy walked out from it, he rush towards her without thinking.

“Suzy, where have you been?” he grab her hands, Suzy stare at him and smiled, but she didn’t say anything.

“Young man, please handle my lady with care.” Joe walked towards Jenard leaning front whispering into his ear. “You know you got to help her awaken, order from Carson.” Jenard growl a little, looking up at Joe with bloodshot eyes.

“I will not let you or Carson harmed her!” he shouted beneath his breath. Joe chuckle a little walking back into the car. Suzy held on to Jenard shirt as she lean her head on his shoulders, again she started to cry. Jenard put his arms around her, giving her embrace. [I swear I’ll never let you cry again for eternity, my Queen.] He swears in his heart, his eyes turn golden red as he stare at the car slowly driving off in the distance.

Shadow 2 {1}

2010-05-05T00:56:00.001-07:00

Samantha sat there beside her sister, as Suzy moan for her. Desmond came back in looking at Samantha; his heart broke as he saw her eyes full of sorrow.

“It’s time to go,” he laid his hands on Samantha shoulder. “Don’t worry; you will meet her very soon.” Desmond held her hands taking her up into the skies. Suzy sat there looking into her sister’s picture as she cries out. As Samantha left for the heaven where her parents are, Suzy felt something in her heart suddenly shock. She squeezes her chest in pain, thinking something was wrong with her. She screams in pain, the pain slowly fades away after a few hours have passed. She lay there unconscious panting for air, her hands still hold on to her sister’s picture. She slowly opens her eyes, as she saw the red full moon shining down on her face. She smiles widely bathing under that moon light.

“Your highness,” someone knock on her door asking permission to enter. She signals her hands allowing him to enter. His presence reminded her of someone, but it just missed her mind. “It’s a beautiful night indeed, but your highness shouldn’t be sitting out too long, the sun will rise soon.” His voice calm and stern, he laid his palm of her head. She looked up into the person voice seeing the young boy she knew in the ball room dance.

“You are that boy who stood at the wall at the dance?” she asked curiously.

“Yes, your highness. My name is Jenard.” He speaks politely, careful with his every gesture.

“Jenard, I see…” she closes her eyes, as his presences complete her. He took away all her curiosity, her worries and even her anger. Yet something was nagging behind her mind. Her eyes shoot open as she quickly looks around the room. She was back in her house, laying there on the floor. Her arms tightly held on to her sister’s picture. Again she started to cry, thinking she is alone now. Down the stairs in the shadow, the man stood again. He no longer smiles, but his eyes show nothing but anger. He mumbles a few words than disappearing into thin air again.

Few days had pass, as Samantha was buried and the funeral was over. Many people offer a helping hand to Suzy, but she refuses and wanted to be alone. In school, her friends were worried for her, as she lingers around lifelessly. No longer was her smile and laughter heard in her school, and the hyper Suzy was now the gloomy Suzy. Her friends slowly left her alone, thinking there is no way into helping her. Jenard sat beside her all the time, he looked into her eyes thinking there must be something her could do for her. Everyday he walked her home and to school, he talked to her. Sometimes he manages to make her laugh a little. But Suzy still stayed in her own world, living a life so lonely.

“DING_DONG_” the door bell rang, Suzy opened it looking into the eyes of a man she never seen but she knew him from somewhere.

“Yes? May I help you?” she asked politely. Thinking maybe he wants to sell some stuff.

“My name is Carson. I am here to take you home.” he said with pride and firmness.

“This is my home and I don’t know you. How am I supposed to follow you?” she said thinking that this man was dangerous. As his eyes was fierce, and his shaggy hair, with long black coat and black gloves.

“Suzy, you got to trust me, I am your only family member left.” He took out the picture where she was young and he held her in his arms. “Don’t you remember your own uncle?” Suzy stare at him a moment, but the memories she have doesn’t have him inside.

“I guess that impact really had your memory lost.” He mumbles some words causing Suzy to loose her consciousness. He held her in his arms, “Don’t you worry, my queen. I will save you no matter what.” He carried her into his car, driving of into the dark. Jenard stood at the high roof looking at Carson’s car.

“No way you are taking her away from me again.” He voice shows no mercy as his speed away into the night. Carson drove into his mansion, his maids and butler waited for him at the door.

“Oh my,” the butler gasp as he saw Suzy carried by Carson. “Must you be this rough with a kid?”

“Shut up, Joe. This kid is not for me to play. She is the queen we had lost a long time ago.” he carried her gently, kissing her forehead. “Prepare a nice room for her, and you guys get her clean. Be gentle with her.” He orders the maid. They quickly took their duty and disappear from his sight, as they knew that he was angry and furious.

“Would you like to have a cup of tea? To smooth your feeling?” Joe came in with the tea ready in his hands. Carson nodded his head, looking at the documents left on his table.

“You know what Joe? She is really the queen. I’ve found her at last after so many centuries.” His voice softens.

“Will she remember you?” Joe asked concerned, but Carson didn’t reply, even he himself doesn’t know if she will remember him.

Shadow part 1 {2}

2010-05-04T20:20:00.000-07:00

“Hey Samantha, wanna go out for a drink after work?” Jacob asked with his bright blue eyes, hoping for her to say yes. Samantha looks away from her screen, looking up there at him. Her eyes darker than Suzy, her hair golden brown wave slightly as she turns to look at him, Jacob heart jumped as her smile charm him.

“Sorry, I got other plans today,” she smiled again, Jacob looked at her blushed. He smiled walking away thinking for another plan. Samantha whistles gently as she packs her desk leaving the office for the day. She stood before the lift waiting for it to come. As she stood there looking at her watch, a young man with blue eyes stood beside her. He greeted her in a low tone voice, his eyes charms all the women in the company as he walked pass by. Samantha was also caught in the moment memorizing. His dark blue eyes as clear as the sky, his well build body. Somewhere is her heart someone whispers for her to run away, but she stood there staring at him without moving at all. The lift reached as he walked into lift, he held the lift waiting for her to enter, but her mind went blank.

“Are you coming in?” his voice again charms her, she quickly walked in embarrassed. Her heart kept on pumping as she stood beside him; he stood there looking at her. “Have I met you before?” he broke the silent.

“No, we haven’t,” she smiled back hiding her nervousness, hoping her heart beat wasn’t too loud for him to hear.

“Ah, I see. My name is Desmond. How bout you?” he asked calmly looking into her eyes.

“My name is Samantha, are you a new member of this company?”

“Yeah, nothing much to do anyway, been like here the whole morning and there aren’t any stuff for me to do.” Samantha giggles. “Hey, why don’t we meet sometimes for like lunch or dinner?” they chatted as the lift descended slowly. Samantha wishes that the time could stop for that moment.

[Get away from him…] someone whispers in her head. She stood there as the lift open, Desmond walked out smiling.

“So, I’ll see you tomorrow.” He smiled; Samantha nodded her head shaking the voice inside her away. “No I should say, see you later Samantha…” he whispers as the door slam close. Samantha looked shock at the door as if she heard something that was forbidden, but she couldn’t catch the last words and sentence she shook away the idea thinking she must have been dreaming. She drove back happily, she whistles as she glance at the cake lay there at the passenger sit. [Suzy is going to love it…] She drove but she missed the light that turns red in front of her.

“HONK!!!” a loud horn strike from the other side, both cars compact into each other leaving Samantha screaming. She closes her eyes, feeling every single impact on her body. Moment had past as she slowly open her eyes, she tries feeling the pain around her body but none was felt. She stares straight from where she stood. She was looking into the crash from where she stood; many people walked pass her into the scene. Moments later someone pull a body out from her car, she stare at her body looking into her bloody self. [Am I already dead?]

“Yes you are.” A familiar voice came from behind her. She turned around expecting to stare into a face she knew. But instead what stood behind her was a man with long black robes. “I already told you I will see you later,” he smiles evilly.

“Desmond?” her voice shook in fear thinking she must be dreaming. Yet he smile and pulled his hood back showing his charming face yet so evil. “What just happen?”

“You just died,” he pause letting the word sink into her mind. “And I am here to take your soul.” His eyes show no mercy, Samantha drop on the floor; her legs gave way not allowing her to stand. “Come on, I got to bring you to se your sister one last time.” He grabs her hand flying up into the air.

“How can that be? I can’t leave my sister alone!” she let his hands go, running away from his gaze. “She needs me, we lost our parents already, and she needs me!” she screamed, tears fall from her eyes.

“I know your parents I took them to heaven. That is where you are going too, don’t worry bout your sister, her destiny is more thrilling and you think.” He smiles as he talks. “Even if you leave her now, she will meet you again one day with your parents. And my meaning is not she die, yet she live to see you.” He again grabs her hands, leading her towards their house. Samantha tried to struggle but some where in her heart she knew that he was speaking the truth. They lay on Suzy room where she sat there doing her homework, at the same time looking at the clock. Samantha tries grabbing her little sister, but her hands went through her. The phone rang, Suzy quickly stood up reaching for the phone. Samantha had already known what the call was, as she looks at her sister eyes, both of their hearts broke into pieces. She hugs Suzy, both of them cried. Desmond stood there looking into both of their eyes. [If only I could tell her the reason of her death and her parent’s death…] he signs to himself leaving Samantha with her sister for a while. Suzy kept on crying thinking that she is alone, all her family member no longer around her.

“Why, why must you do this to me?” Suzy scream into the night as she moan and cries for her sister’s death.

Shadow part 1 {1}

2010-04-06T07:25:00.000-07:00

The people in the hall cheer as her name was mention, the rats and bats hide in the shadow as her name was called. The door opened in front of her, as they cheer in please. Her slim tender body covers with black silk cloth, her eyes golden merciless matches her white skin. She sniff the air as she walked slowly down the grand stair, she looked around at the people in the hall, holding their cups up high.

“Welcome, Your Majesty!” everyone welcome her with their hands wide open. Her hair as black as the galaxy floating as she walked gracefully down the stairs, a young man stood far at the corner of the hall looking at her. She stares at his face wondering where she saw him before, she looked back the crowd tossing her drink up high in the air as everyone cheer once again. [This faces and attitude are all fakes…nothing is this happy in this world…] she looked into her glass smelling it turns her eyes red. [Blood…] she turns away from her glass. [Nothing comes easily…] she sat at a pool of blood, her hand shake in fear. She looked at the young boy lay in front of her, slowing breathing for life but soon will fade. She touches his face stroking his hair gently.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it…” she whispers in his ear, slowly moving to his neck. She sank her fangs into his throat ending his live in a second. Her tears as red as a rose, flows from her eyes, “I’m sorry…” she kept on saying towards him.

{RING__RING__} something rang from a far. She looked up into the sky soon was changed in a ceiling. Something hit her in the head, as she looks around the room her sister stood there whacking her.

“Suzy, you are late for school!” her sister, Samantha dress in her gym cloths. Suzy got up quickly rushing around the house getting ready for school. She stop by the mirror looking into her eyes, all that was staring back at her was a high school girl with brown hair and light brown eyes. She rushes to the kitchen stole bread from her sister’s plate and run out from the house. Samantha stood at the door shaking her head; as she turns back into the house her senses caught something. She looked around her house area but nothing could be found. Suzy skipped her way down to school, as a small breeze blew at her direction.

“I’ve found you…” a whisper flew along with the wind. Suzy looked around thinking she was having illusion, she turn back heading straight to school. From the shadow a young man appear, his eyes as blue as the sky, he grin in please.

“I’ve finally found you, my queen…” as mysteriously he appears he disappears along with the wind leaving a small echo behind. Suzy stays with her elder sister Samantha after their parents died in a car accident, they both depends on each other. Suzy sat at her class chatting around with her friends as the bell ring her homeroom teacher step into the class.

“Today we have a transfer student with us!” Mr. Luke mention to the class. He signals, a young boy step into the class. Suzy stare at him in shock, as she saw the young boy was the exact same person in her dreams. His green eyes charm every single girl in the room, his height and body is well build. She gasped as he talked for his voice is low and somewhere in it held her breath tightly. “There is an empty space behind Suzy, you can sit there.” He walked past Suzy leaving her breathless for the first time. [Why is my heart feeling like this?] She thought to herself, [He was in my dream!] she panic in her mind.

“Hi, my name is Jenard. And you are?” he smiled at Suzy with gentle eyes, putting his hands out for a friendly shake.

“My name is Suzy.” She smiled back shaking his hands gently. At that moment both of them felt a electric shock in them, he look at her eyes widen as she turns away blushing.

Forbidden 7 {END}

2010-04-01T20:14:00.000-07:00

Ursula descended from the sky with Raven along her side.

“Raven!” everyone shouted her name, but her eyes shows to reaction towards them. Only hatred and the aura to kill them was in her mind, her eyes fix on Vaugh ready for attack with Ursula’s orders.

“Kill all of them, even the vampires.” Ursula finally states her order. Raven screams as fire burst trough her body.

“Get readies everyone!” Nathaniel shouted to his army.

“What about us? We did everything you told us to do!” Carson looked at Ursula with fears in his eyes.

“You are a small fly, why bother.” Ursula looked at Raven. “KILL THEM ALL!” she scream her order again. Without hesitation, Raven charge towards them. She slices anything in her way. She burns anything comes her way, all in her mind was to kill Vaugh and end it all. Deep down in her heart, she lay there curled up in cold and fear.

“RAVEN!” a small scream echo in her darkness. She looked up into her pitch black world.

“Who was that?” she whispers under her breath. A small light appear as a figure walked towards her. She looked at that figure with fear.

“Who are you?” She asked again softly.

“I am you and you are me. Do you think that it is really enough for you to do this? Letting all your friends think that you are a coward hiding in this world?”

“I don’t know how to face them; I love them with everything I have.”

“You do? Than why aren’t you stopping this?” she wave her hands, and Raven saw herself in reality. She was fighting and killing the angels, Rapheal try to stop her and so was the rest. Vaugh face suddenly appears in front of her, he screaming her name.

“Vaugh…” she looked at his eyes, seeing the fear of loosing her. “He loved me?” she slowly stood up, “I want to go back! They need me!” she turns towards the figure looking at her firmly.

“You already know what you need to do…” she smiled slowly disappearing into the darkness.

“Vaugh, wait for me…I am coming back.” She whispers, closing her eyes.

“Raven, please wake up!” he lay there as Raven stood above him reading to stab in his heart.

“Raven, stop!” Ursula shouted from above. Raven looked up at her, as she signals for Raven to return to her side. “Use your fire that you are proud of, kill him with that blow, turn it into a spear of light and stab it into his heart trough his soul.” Raven gathers her energy, creating a fire spread trough her fire.

“Raven!” Rapheal roar her name, as he charge at her. She dodges it nicely, holding onto Rapheal throat. “Please remember who I am…” he stares into her eyes, searching for a slightness soul in her. She threw him away effortless, as she aims her spear towards Vaugh. Vaugh screams her name, as he closes his eyes, but nothing pierce trough him. He slowly opens his eyes seeing Ursula falling from the sky. Her heart laid Raven’s spear and she screamed in pain. Raven stood over her mother looking down at her mother’s dying face.

“You thought you can rule over me, but you are wrong.”

“Why…I thought I did it right…” she coughed.

“Yea…but the truth you never put the demon blood in me…you save me from death.” Raven held her mother hands and cried. “You put it into yourself, not wanting me to become like that…”

“I never thought you will notice that…” Ursula smiled in please as her last breath fades away into nothingness.

“In the end, she is still our mother…” Nathaniel laid his hands on both Ursula and Raven as he cried. “Raven, I think it is time for you to come home.” Raven looked at her brother eyes, but turns away in disgrace. Vaugh walked towards her hugging her with all his might.

“Never leave me again,” he said softly. “Remember you hold the key to my heart.” Raven smiled in please hugging Vaugh.

“I’ll remember that you will always belong to me, as I will always belong to you.” Rapheal snuggle into Raven arms as she laughed in please.

Ursula body lay there buried by her children, but soon after they left something dig out from the earth, a small hand appear from no where, pushing it’s way to the above.

Forbidden 6{2}

2010-04-01T20:01:00.000-07:00

Vaugh lay there beside his best friend as the rest of the angels; Rapheal and Ethen discuss the way to save Raven. Joseph sat beside him thinking hard too.

“You are her brother isn’t?” Vaugh broke the silence between them. Joseph nodded his head. “So this feeling of love is actually from you?” Vaugh touch his heart unsure about the things going on right now. Joseph just sat there silently, his eyes stare into space as tears slowly flows.

“Remember the time you met her?” Joseph finally talked. “That time before you died, did you feel anything for her?”

“Yea…the moment I met her, I feel I want to protect her smile and be with her forever.”

“Do you feel the same now?” Joseph tone changed, Vaugh stare his guardian angels face.

“Yea…I want to protect it no matter what!”

“Than you love her, not trough me but trough your own heart.” Vaugh stare at Joseph again, [Something is wrong, he is doing something else.] Vaugh heart jump as Nathaniel yell for battle. Far away from them, Carson charge towards them with his army of vampires. The angels line up with their armor ready, Vaugh merge with Joseph taking Jasfer to a safe place, but black cloud surround Jasfer as it took him towards Carson. Vaugh chase after his friend’s body but stop at the sight if Adelia. She stroke Jasfer hair softly whispering into his ears, Jasfer eyes open but the color was different.

“LET HIM GO!” Vaugh screamed on top of his lungs. But Adelia smiled with please to see sorrow. Nathaniel and Rapheal stopped half way too as they saw her standing there.

“Adeli, you are alive?” Nathaniel reach is hands out towards her.

“I’m sorry Nathaniel, you beloved Adeli is dead, my name is Adelia.” Her voice cold and cruel, Rapheal fire turns in blue he roar with his might, his roar echo trough out the sky. Adelia stood there but her body shivers in fear as she saw the blue flame increases. [This is something I will regret…but I think is worth doing it,] she looked at Rapheal than at Nathaniel. His eyes were confused and his hands are shaking. “Jasfer, time to do the job.” She whispers into Jasfer ears. He pulled out the guns and scream for everyone to charge. There is war begins between the life and death of earth. Far up in the sky, Ursula stood there with Raven by her side. She looked down upon the battle smiling with please.

“Raven, my dear, that guy there with the name Vaugh, the guy whom you love so dearly have to be killed by your hands.” Raven nodded obediently, for she has no more control of herself anymore.

Vaugh fought his way around to get close to Jasfer, he ignore everything that was standing before him, killing them with one blow. He held Jasfer collar yanking him to wake up, but his friend shot him without hesitation.

“Jasfer, WAKE UP MAN!” he screamed his best friends name. Adelia stood there smiling without lifting a finger. [She control him, damn! I need to get to her.] He back up from Jasfer letting the fight confuses them. He slowly sneaks up towards Adelia, but her senses are just too sharp. Rapheal charge towards them, roaring Adelia name, the fight continued as many angel and vampire lay on the floor. Adelia held Rapheal down to the ground choking him to death, a spear of fire came from the sky. Adelia knew that it was coming; she stood there rising her body, the spear stab down into her heart as she screamed in pain.

“Why, why did you do that?” Rapheal saw her tears and her smile.

“I’m finally free,” she lay down whispering into his ears. “Tell…tell him not to worry, he did the right thing…now I can go back to where I belong.” She coughed with blood stuck in her throat. Jasfer snapped from where he is, he looked around at the chaos in front of him but worst was he found Vaugh laying there at his feet with wounds and blood.

“Vaugh!” he shouted. Vaugh opened his eyes and smile; he slowly got up taking a look around. Carson continued to fight with Ethen, but the thunder in the sky stops him.

“Oh shit, she is coming!” he said with fear in his eyes.

Forbidden part 6{1}

2010-03-20T09:55:00.001-07:00

“Your highness, I’m sorry we couldn’t bring her head back.” Carson kneeled down before his master.
“No worries, I think is time to give my daughter and sons a surprise visit.” Her hand signals for Carson to back down. Moments later after he was gone, another shadow appear from the back of the room. “Are you ready Adelia?” she appear from the shadow into light.
“Yes, my Lady Ursula.” Adelia speaks with grace and honor.
“Good, is time to pay a visit hope they will be glad to see us!” she laughed. She steps into the light. Ursula laughed again, as her red gown glide trough the floor as she walk.

Raven sat at the grass looking at Rapheal as he argues with Nathaniel far away from them. Both of their fires remain blue as they were mad and angry. Vaugh sat awkwardly beside Raven as Joseph tried to find words to say to his sister.
“So,” Joseph broke the silent among them. “Ethen here is actually the prince of vampire?”
“Yes, I am. But sadly I have been kicking out ever since my father death, for my brother wants the throne.” Ethen stay clam and firm but all of them could sense the fear in him.
“Jospeh?” Raven said softly. He looked at her, seeing his long lost sister no longer wore her mask. “What will happen from here?” her voice shook slightly.
“Everything will be alright, we all are here for you.” He patted her shoulder giving some ease and comfort.
“But, something is telling me it wont be alright.” Before Joseph could reply her, a small call fro help came from the river. Vaugh jumped immediately by the voice calling for help. He peak his head to the river, seeing Jasfer struggling with the current of the water.
“Jasfer!!” he screamed his best friend name. Joseph saw it too, he wanted to hold Vaugh back in case it was a trick but his smell told him that he was human. Vaugh drag his best friend to land, giving him back his breath. Raven held her hand over Jasfer body healing his every wound.
“His is damage bad.” Vaugh panted beside Jasfer still holding on to his best friend’s hands. “Dude, Stay there, hang in there.” Moment past and Jasfer finally open his eyes.
“Dude, you are crying.” He laughed at Vaugh with his teary eyes. “I am sorry, I should have trusted her, and they really used me. I’ve been trying to find my way out, but Adelia was careless.” Raven laughed.
“Typical Adelia, she has and will always be clumsy.” Jasfer turn towards her looking into her golden eyes. “They say that she is coming to meet you, please don’t look into her eyes. She will use you if get hold of your weakness.” Jasfer slowly gasp for air again. Vaugh looked at Raven, her eyes no longer sad or smile, but full of anger. Her eyes no longer shine with innocent and pride, but instead dead aura surrounded her. She held on to Jasfer hands tightly, but it is something she shouldn’t have done.
“Raven!” Rapheal screams from behind as darkness cover her up in whole. Jasfer mouth vomited black shadow, as he screams in pain. Suddenly everything just disappears, leaving Vaugh speechless, and Ethen whipping. Jasfer lay there motionless, but his heart still beating. Adelia stood far from them in the shadow looking into Nathaniel eyes. [I am sorry, I got to do this.] She turns away, Nathaniel look at her direction as he heard the voice in his head.
Raven slowly woke up from the impact she had, her hands touch a soft material. She slowly feels her surrounding before opening her eyes, sniffing the air for people or creature sense. A strong perfume came into her nose, as her eyes flinch open in shook as she saw Ursula sitting there sleeping beside her. She looked around the room, finding her hands were cuff to the bed and so were her legs. Her dress was change into white night gown as it shows her figure. Adelia sat at the other end of the room washing a cloth, she ear moved as she heard the metal chain clang.
“You are awake your highness,” she shake the cloth walked towards Raven, she wipe her face gently, Raven close her eyes, as she never felt this much comfortable before. She shook her head pushing her thoughts away, she lash out her nails at Adelia.
“Get away from me!” she shouted, Ursula eyes opened seeing her daughter hissing at Adelia. She signals for Adelia to go out, than she looks at Raven.
“What you think you can do with that?” she lay back on her chair, rocking back and fro. Raven never moved a single muscle; ready for anything that comes her way. “Relax; you know clearly I don’t hurt you. All I want is to spend time with my daughter.”
“Talk to your daughter? Than what are these chain cuffs for?”
“Precaution, in case you use those nails to find your way out.” She looked at Raven with love and caring. “Come here, let me pat your head like I used to.” She patted her legs asking Raven to move forward. Something is Raven mind called her not to go, but her body moved slowly towards Ursula. She lay besides her, lending her head on her mother’s lap. Ursula started to sing softly, as Raven drift into sleep, her stroke her daughter hair gently, looking in her face. [What a beautiful girl I gave birth to, but I am sorry I got to use you.] She continued to sing and stroke Raven’s hair. Slowly Raven opens her eyes, but there wasn’t a single consciousness of her soul. “Come my child,” Ursula held her hands. “Is time to destroy what your Father created,” She led Raven up the stairs, slowly her gown burns into ashes, fire cover her body as her wings spread out wide, black cloth appears and she walked silent in the night.

Forbidden part 5 {3}

2010-03-20T07:25:00.000-07:00

Everyone sat quietly in, no one dare to break the silence, Vaugh looked around at them, seeing their calm face only Nathaniel was showing a face that he couldn’t read, a mixture of panic and fear. [Why is he showing such face? There is something wrong…] Joseph flinch looking out the window, his eyes no longer calm but panic shown.
“What is happening?” Vaugh asked curiously. “I can’t sit here and wait already!” Joseph burst, tears slowly flow down from his eyes. “We got to help her!” he held Nathaniel collar shaking him back and forth. “Aren’t we her brothers??” Nathaniel look away in disgust but his eyes those show mercy and pain.
“No we can’t, I promise Father that I won’t get involve with her like you did. Look at you, after you get involve with her, this is what u r now, and hiding in this mere human’s body!”
“What the hell is going on?!” Vaugh shouted at them.
“Your Raven is in trouble she can handle it by herself.” Nathaniel said in a cool tone.
“You know she can’t! She is against The Carson! You know he is dangerous!”
“I won’t let anyone die because of her. Loosing you is already enough!” Nathaniel interrupted. Both of them stare in each other eye, the tension around the room got worst. “I can’t help her anymore; she is out of our reach.” Joseph slaps him hard on the face.
“No matter how much you want to say, she is still our sister and you know that as well right down in your heart! Come Vaugh, we going to safe her!” Joseph turns himself into an eagle, taking flight into the sky. Vaugh looked at Nathaniel, hurt and betrayed was shown all over his face. He ran after Joseph leaving Nathaniel behind. [I know she is my sister…] he said quietly in his mind. [I know I need to help her, the problem is I don’t know how to face her.] Silently his tears fall. Vaugh ran along with Joseph in the sky, at the far distance he heard metal sound smashing each other. Fire light was shot into the sky, massive of people was hurt at the floor, Vaugh held them in his arms wanting to help them.
“Get away from them!” Both Raven and Joseph screams at the same time. Vaugh looked down at the man in his arms, the man bare his fangs and grabbing his hands. Vaugh struggled to be free; a fire came towards them burning that man alive. Rapheal jump into Vaugh view, nodding his head towards Nathaniel behind him.
“How have you been?” Nathaniel spoke in a sarcastic way. Rapheal ignore him leaping towards another vampire. Carson saw the angels coming towards them, upon seeing Nathaniel side by side with Raven and Vaugh, he signal for his comrades to back up for the moment.
“I will see you again your highness and you too Princess of hell…” he laughed disappearing into the dark. Raven chases after him but Ethen held her back.
“Please, don’t go after them. I am sorry…” his voice lower than usual, “I finally know what I am already. That face kick back all the memories,” his words no longer childish as he spoke like a real vampire, gentleman but scary under the tone.
“What you doing here?” Nathaniel broke the silence among them, he stare at Rapheal firmly wanting some answer.
“What my doing here, that is none of your business.” Rapheal turned away; he slowly walked towards Raven and lay beside her, putting his head on her thigh for a rest. Raven slowly stokes his fur as her purr in please.
“Rapheal!” Nathaniel shouted, “I am ordering you to tell me!” Rapheal body turns into blue flame fire, his eyes look at him fiercely.
“You left me there to die! When I need you, you left like a coward and left me there to bleed to death. If it wasn’t for her, I would have been dead!” Rapheal fire turns even bluer.
“She is alive?” Nathaniel voice shook in fear.
“Than what is the point of you angels flying down from your little comfortable zone to help them?” Rapheal tone no longer fun and cute, he was dead serious. “And I know what is going on in your mind. You ready to hold your sword in case I am a traitor. But to tell you this sadly I am not, I love Raven more than I love her, so please relax your muscle it is also tensing me up.”
“I don’t belief you, she is dead, she dead in my arms!” Nathaniel shook his head furiously. Rapheal just looked away into the sky. [Let your mind wonder…]

Forbidden part 5 {2}

2010-03-09T04:50:00.001-08:00

“AH! There is a rat!!” one of the customer screams, everyone looked at her direction searching for the rat, without any hesitation and small creature ran out the door down the road back up into a tree at the back alleys. The owner cooled and the customers and apologies. Raven packed her things ready to go home, as she walked out from the back door her eyes caught on that small creature hiding and shivering. Her hands reach out to it with little bread crumbs on her hand.

“Come, I won’t hurt you.” She says gently. That creature slowly took it steps down, he sniff on the bread crumbs than snatching it away from her hand. He eyes kept on her, [She is the one who sang…] he thought in it head. Raven started too walked off, he held its breath and started to follow her back. Raven sat at the balcony looking down at the streets, her eyes held up high into the sky as she think about Vaugh.

“Raven worried bout Vaugh?” Ethen whispers in the dark. [The Prince!!!] The small creature alert himself, hiding away into darkness from Ethen. Raven nodded her head leaving a sad look in her eyes. The small creature wanted to comfort her, want to wrap her in its fur letting her cry all the tears away, but before he could jump to her lap his sense trigger in him.

“DANGER!!” he screams from the darkness, Raven and Ethen stare at him unaware of the thousands of vampire bats rushing into the apartment. “WATCH OUT!!” he screams again running out into the open, he jump into midair than smoke cover the room. Raven and Ethen felt a push on their back an urge for them to run away. “RUN,” the same voice come from behind them. They ran without knowing what was going on, as they ran clear from the smoke, behind them stood a wolf like creature as high as a horse, his fur was bright red and orange, patterns cover his fur and at his head as a Rudy stone, each paws projects fire. He snarled at the smoke, reading his position to fight and kill.

“Rapheal…?” Ethen mummer the name out, his eyes in shock and disbelief.

“Yo, Ethen long time no see, how are ya?” Rapheal said without turning his head. Raven looked at them two for a long time, the name rings the bell somewhere, but she couldn’t remember. The bats escape the smoke turning into men.

“Castor,” Raven whispers under her breath. Ethen also look at them in fear.

“Well, well. It is honor that the princess of hell actually remembers my name, and the prince of all vampires is here to die under my hands. What honor shall it bring to the king of vampires!” he laughed in please. Without any hesitation Castor signal for the rest to attack. Rapheal shouted for both Raven and Ethen to run away, fire gash out from his mouth leaving the vampires in confusion. They started to run again, Raven looked back at her apartment seeing flames swallowing everything in it.

“Damn, now where are we going to stay?”

“Vaugh house!” Ethen said without hesitation, Raven knocked his head hardly.

“You think what are we?” but somewhere in her heart she knew she have to turn to Vaugh sooner or later. They continued to run, upon reaching the river they hide themselves under the bridge patting for air. Ethen looked around scared, his eyes shaking in fear. “Are you all right?” Raven held on to Ethen supporting his weight on her shoulder. Ethen shook his head without saying anything; Rapheal turns big covering Ethen body with its fur.

“Ethen, I think you should tell the truth to Raven what is going on with your side.” Ethen looked at Raven with thinking eyes.

“Okay, I’m sorry Raven.” His voice different then usual, his manners was like a real vampire gentle but evil. “You know right I am a prince?” Raven nodded her head. “Well, you see, my father died a month ago, I am suppose to be the next king, but my younger brother took the throne and put a price on my head accusing me for killing my father. But in truth he was the one who order assassin to kill my father. I ran into this place, acting as if I lost everything, I cover my sense and live until I met you. I thought being with you I could find a way to kill him one day, but I didn’t know that you were also targeted.”

“Woa, stop right there. You are saying that you want the throne back and you are fighting against the entire vampire?” Ethen looked at her sadly, knowing that with her problem right now she couldn’t help him. “Cool! Count me in! Man, I didn’t know I could wake that Carson ass that soon. You know that asshole had always trying to rape me? Damn, I got my chance now!” Ethen and Rapheal stare at Raven with amazement, besides thinking how much trouble she is in she still could help Ethen in his revenge.

“They are here…” Rapheal said under his growl. Everyone alert themselves ready to fight.

Vaugh lay on his bed with Nathaniel beside him; the awkward silent is driving him mad and impatience.

“Joseph, you better come out right now, I need to speak to you.” His shadow turns into another form, Joseph look almost like Vaugh just older and wiser, still the silent remains. Vaugh signed. “Tell me what is going to happen next?”

“I have no idea I think that you should asked Raven, she is the one that brought this entire thing to you.” Nathaniel answers in disgust. “I don’t even know why Gabriel asked us to help her. She belongs to hell, she should die.”

“Shut up! Raven helped me; she helped me when I was young and even now!” Vaugh snapped at him.

“Vaugh, everything will be alright. I am trying to stop everything with my power.” Joseph held Nathaniel back from replying. “We need to trust Raven now; she is having a hard time fighting herself. Nathaniel, you think that how long have she been fighting by herself. She never even bother us to help her fight, she have been keep the order balance here. And now you ant to blame her because Ursula is her mother and back?” his words sharp and firm, no one dared to answer him. “Why not you all stop whining and start taking action, after all you all are angels.” Nathaniel sat there by the window putting on his mask of steal, but they know inside he understand.

Black Heart

2010-02-15T05:38:00.001-08:00

Chocolates are made
Roses are given
Heart shape messages are used
But none of this can touch my heart
For it is as hard as steal
This valentine shall not be fun
It shall not cover with love
Blood will be everywhere
Screams shall fill the sky
For my valentine
Shall be cover in darkness and blood
YesÂ¦that shall be the perfect match
For my cold black heart...

Forbidden part 5 {1}

2010-02-09T01:35:00.000-08:00

“What are we going to do?” Vaugh said furiously, “What the hell is actually going on?” he slams his hands on the table. The sound echo around the room, the marble table vibrates a little. Nathaniel sat the center of the table, he look at Vaugh than at Raven at the far corner of the room. “We got to save Jasfer! What happen to you all? Why are we sitting here?!”

“Joseph, you better come out now.” Nathaniel command, everyone look around thinking someone will appear out from the door. Vaugh shadow slowly spilt into two leaving the other shadow slowly turns into human form. His dark black hair and his brown eyes, he wore an old army uniform. He bowed down in respect towards Nathaniel.

“I humbly apologize, Sir.” His voice low and firm, Raven flinch at the sound of his voice. She rushes out from the shadow towards Joseph. Her skin burns under the light on heaven, but she hugs him without caring the pain she feel.

“Brother, I miss you!” Joseph covers her skin with his cloak. Hugging her back tightly. Vaugh roll his eyes again.

“Can someone tell me what is going on?!”

“Joseph and Raven are brother and sister,” Nathaniel started to say.

“Obviously, what else can they be when she shouted brother?”

“I lost him when we were young, the time I meet you. My mother took me away from my father and brother, later on I heard the news that he died protecting my father from Ursula. That’s my mother…” Raven quickly explain, Joseph continued his story of finding Vaugh body on the day he died changing him from an ordinary boy into a forbidden child giving him the power to protect her.

“So, now how are we going to get Jasfer?” his friends in the hand of the enemy scare him. Jasfer is known as strong and smart but towards this world he is no where near the strength of devil or power.

“We wait for them to come to us,” Raven looked at the sky the moon shine brightly but to her is cover in red. “Ethen, we got to go.”

“Where are you going?” Nathaniel stood up quickly as she makes her way out.

“Work, I am not as rich as you guys. I have to work to make my meals.” She pushes Nathaniel hands away from the door. Ethen follow silent from behind avoiding the light around the room. She slams the door behind her, leaving the echo around the room.

“Sir, we shouldn’t trust her! She is not on our side!” a young soldier said his mind.

“What are talking about?!” Vaugh exclaim, “She save all of us from Ruby, and now you say you don’t trust her?”

“Is not that,” Nathaniel out his hands on the table, his eyes shows confusion. “We have to trust, because I don’t know who to trust anymore. Someone up there is not on our side either.” Everyone looked at him curiously. “We were order to kill Vaugh here, and let the werewolf live. But no one up there mention about Joseph being in Vaugh,” everyone stay silent knowing something is really wrong.

{Ding~~Ding~~} “WELCOME!” the shop owner shouted to greet the customer. “Oh, Is Raven!” he smiled nicely.

“Raven, sing for us!” some customers protest her to sing, Ethen started his work serving the customers.

“Come on Raven, they have been waiting.” Raven smile shyly walking up the stage. She sang the lullaby of the heaven. Something shoot across the city fast, he stop for a second as he heard the melody of Raven voice.

[Such beautiful voice…] he started to run towards the sound stopping by the window looking into the room at Raven. [She is an angel!] moving closer into the room, he sat there looking at her, totally forgetting the surrounding he was in.

One Day Human

2010-02-03T18:41:00.000-08:00

“Hey listen, there it goes again.” A young girl in her uniform whispers to her friend.

“Yea…I heard the seniors say that this room is haunted by a ghost girl who love to sing. Even the teachers never dare to come into this room to take the art stuff.” Her friend replied her, both of them shiver quickly turn around and back to class. Little they know in that room is not stayed by a ghost but a young girl with big dreams. Suzy is an orphanage, she lost her mother in a car accident and her father walked away from home without turning back. Every time students in school see her, they either hit her or bully her. She was always running around school trying to avoid everyone that was when she found this room to hide herself. To her that room was magical, it gave her the power to sing, ever since she steps into school, the music of choir caught her. The music there caught her ears, since then she was drawn towards music. She tried singing in her house but the house owner always scream for her to shut up. In that room she sang, no one knew who she was.

“Oh My God! Richard is coming here!!” the girls scream, a celebrity decided to study in this private school for a while, the girls scream chasing him every where. Teachers tried their best to block the girls while he ran for his life.

“There is an empty art room, but it is haunted. If you don mind you can hide there, no one ever dare to go there alone.” Richard took his leave to the art room. That part of the building was deserted; it was almost like no one ever dares to step into that floor. He took his steps slowly towards the art room; Suzy sang her usual songs without any thought that people would be coming. Richard was so drawn into her voice, suddenly he don’t feel scare anymore. [Such angelic voice, who would think this, is a ghost voice.] He steps in as quiet as possible but Suzy ears are as sharp as a fox. She stops singing quickly hiding herself into the shadows.

“Please don’t stop singing.” Richard plead, “I really love your voice, are you really a ghost?” Suzy never talked to anyone before, this is her first. She was scared and didn’t know what to do. [Who is he? Why is he here?] Questions kept on popping out from her mind. “Please, even if you are a ghost, can u continue to sing?” Suzy just continued to sing as he asked to, her eyes kept on him in case he tries to find her. Richard sat there eyes close listening to the angel voice of his dreams. Time passes both of them enjoyed each other company, Suzy smile wider each moment.

“Hey,” Suzy shut her mouth right away. “I know you are not a ghost, I will live my card here, come and find me,” with just a card he walked out from the door. Suzy waited for his shadow to go and his footsteps longer in sight, she jumped on the table looking into the card. [He is a Singer!] Her eyes widen, she was please that someone wanted to hear her sings. She look at herself, fur cover her body, hands that actually paws. [How can I? I am just a cat…] She lay beside the card, looking into it.

“Please,” she pleads, “Please, just one day let me sing in front of him as a human.” She pleads so hard, her tears fall onto the card, and slowly she falls asleep. The morning sun shines into the room the next morning trough the broken window. Suzy yawn, but she felt something different in this morning. Her body was shivering cold, and the table became smaller for her. She looked around, noticing her fur was gone and her body was cover in skin. Her paws are hands and legs, she gasped and real voice came out from her throat.

“Thank you! Oh thank you!” she started to cry. Behind the art room was a box of clothing for the drama club, choosing the clothing of a white nice gown. She dash out from the room into the street, student stare at her as she ran by their classes, whispers went trough the whole school teachers was stun, no one know where she came from. She ran down town as fast she could to the address in the card. People was lining up, it seem there was an audition to find a partner for Richard. She registers her name, waited for her turn. One by one people walked out from the door, either crying or just disappointed.

“I never seen Richard this serious…” one of the girls came out saying. Suzy was so nervous; her stomach felt like there was a knot tying her.

“Next!” the person called. Suzy stood up walking awkwardly into the room. All eyes were on her, at that moment she felt like dashing out from the room. But she kept her feet there in the middle of the room. The judges whispers at her clothing and messy hair, they signal for to start. Suzy took one deep breath holding her head high up, she sang the song of a lullaby her mother used to sing to her. The judges were shock by her voice, Richard at the side there stood up immediately. [That voice! I know she is real!] He clap his hands she sang finish so did the judges. All smiles were on their face, Suzy bowed down thanking them, and she rushes out from the room before they could say anything. Something was changing in her, she pass by the mirror of the hallway, her cat ears was up. [Oh NO!] She screams in her mind. Slowly she turns back into a cat, Richard chase after her, but found her clothing lying at the hallway.

“Suzy, where are you?!” he kept on calling out for her. Suzy hide in the corner, how much she wants to tell him she is there. “Suzy!” he kept on calling. She couldn’t stand it anymore; she took up all her courage and step out from the shadow.

“Meow~” she called to him. He looked at her thinking he must be crazy. Knowing that he wouldn’t believe it, she walked into the dress taking the card out showing him and looking to the door.

“You know where she is?” he asked, disbelieving that a cat can tell him the way. Suzy nodded her head and ran out. He chase after her to the school, “Here…the school…of course!” he walked with her to the room. “Suzy?” he asked. Suzy jumped on the table looking at him right into his eyes. “She is here right?” he asked.

“She is…” Suzy replied in words. “I am Suzy, I know I am a cat and I can’t talk, but this room gave me the power to talk.” Richard eyes show he shock, Suzy knew there was only one way for her to prove, she sang the same lullaby.

“You are Suzy…I know that voice anywhere.” Suzy sat licking herself. Richard just sat there staring at her.

“I am sorry,” she started to walk out, she stop at the door looking back at him. “I am sorry I can’t sing for you anymore. I really enjoyed singing…” she ran away from him, she tries to fight back her tears. Again he chases after her, he wants to keep her, and he wants her to be with him. Suzy kept on running, her tears covers her eyes; she couldn’t see the road properly. A car screeches, and bangs her into midair.

“NO!!” Richard screams. That was the last thing she heard him say, she looked into the sky and smile. [Thank you, for letting be human for a day…] Darkness took over her sight as she took her last breath.

Forbidden part 4 {2}

2010-02-01T06:17:00.001-08:00

Ruby was counted as strong, her powers was given by Ursula after all. No matter how they come and attack her, with a signal of winds the angels were easily blown away, another signal of earthquake, the werewolves were shaken down. Vaugh joined in the fight; he flew around in circles aiming his position well. Everyone was trying their best to kill, Jasfer still shock by the fairy tail world he never knew. How much he wishes to help them, each time Vaugh or Raven was beat down to earth his heart pump so loud that it aches so much. [I want to help them, someone give the power and strength to help them!] He begs on his knees. Something bright covers his eyes, the next thing he knows he was seeing into whiteness.

“Where am I?” he asked softly thinking there was something wrong with his eyes.

‘You asked to help them didn’t you?’ someone whispers in his ears. He nodded his head without answering; in that empty space he could hear his breathing. ‘Than I will grant thee me, you shall use me as I call thee my master. For my name is Adelia.’ His sight return to his current place, he stood there thinking, debating in his mind if everything was true. [Why not? There are angels and werewolves, why I just believe in that?]

“Adelia please,” he claps his hands together. Bright light shine up trough his heart. Silver, black and heavy metal falls onto his hands. “WOW, this is my dreams! I always wanted this!” two guns lay on his palms.

‘This gun is no normal; no need to reload, but it uses your energy to gain its bullet. One shoot things will be in pieces.’ No second thought needed, he shot his first bullet at Ruby’s wing. Ruby couldn’t avoid it as the shot took her by surprise. Half of her wings blown off into pieces, her screams were eerie even Raven shiver. Jasfer felt his strength weaken but he laugh in pleasure. Never once in his life he used a gun and with this gun everyone would bow down to his wishes. he wounds healed too.

[Ever thing come with a price.] Raven thought to herself knowing that no way such power could befall on a normal human like Jasfer. Breaking free from Nathaniel arms, she flew towards Jasfer. She snatches the gun away from him, looking into the gun.

“I order you to appear.” She commend, a bright light around the gun slowly turn into a women. Her eyes as white as snow, her lips red like rose, she look into the Raven eyes without any emotions. “You are Adelia…” she nodded her head, bowing towards the princess of hell. “Why Jasfer?”

“Cause he has the power that I require.” As straight forwards as Raven, “And he had the right to be this world you both are in…” Raven growl as Adelia smiles. Jasper couldn’t figure out the reason why Raven was so angry. He stood in front of Adelia holding his arms out.

“I accepted her, she gave me power!”

“Are you a fool?” Raven snap. “Adelia is a demon of weapon, she never give you power not if there is something in return for her!” Jasfer refuses to accept Raven’s advice; he took the guns from her hands and ran away into the woods. “Adelia, what are you planning?!”

“Little princess, I am going to destroy you!” Raven tried to catch her but she faded into thin air.

“What does she mean?” Vaugh asked.

“She means she is going to use Jasfer against us. And if I am not wrong she is under Ursula order.”

“So…what are we waiting for? Let’s chase him!” Vaugh tug her hands into the urge to run. But Raven shook her head and sigh.

“Can’t you hear? His footsteps are no longer here, she already took him to Her place.” Vaugh shook his head, his one and only best friend was taken by the dark side. Nathaniel stood together with Ronal both looking down at Ruby with disgust. Raven flew down towards Ruby; she held her hands to her heart.

“Your eyes are just like her…cough...” blood gust out from her mouth. “Those eyes I hate,” Ruby lay her bloody fingers on Raven face, Raven didn’t flinch yet she sat there looking into Ruby’s eyes and cry.

“I’ll bring you home.” She says softly. Ruby smile as if she saw the light, she reach out her hands towards the empty sky. Slowly her body turns into bubbles spreading out towards the sky.

“Thank you…” was the last whispers in her heart before she vanishes into nothingness. Raven sat there, she couldn’t control her tears. Years after years she experiences the work of Ursula. Each and every time taking an innocent soul to do her wrong being, but this time Raven couldn’t take it anymore her cries out loud into the sky. Vaugh hugs her tightly, [I am going to find him…Jasfer wait for me!] he swear in his heart.

Jasfer runs as fast as possible with the guns in his hands.

“You don’t have to run anymore.” A voice appears in the darkness.

“Who are you?” his hands trembles holding on to his gun.

“I am your master, and I shall use you.” Jasfer screams as snakes tangle his body tight. They tighten him allowing the smell to flow into his nose. Slowly his consciousness left him, Adelia carry his falling body.

“Adelia,” the voice said in the shadow. “Train him well…” Adelia bow in respect, disappearing into the darkness with Jasfer in her arms.

forbidden part 4 {1}

2010-01-31T03:13:00.001-08:00

“Miss Ruby?” Jasfer stares at his teacher’s slender body along with her red dress, showing her curve and sexiness.

“My cute little students, what are you doing here?” She laughed even louder. “Nothing matters now; all I need is for you to step aside. I have business if this girl.” Without any other words, she slashes her fire at Raven again. Not enough time to run, again she took the hit, her screams echo throughout the night. Vaugh started to rush towards her, faster than he used to be, he flap his wings scooping her up to safety.

“Vaugh stay out of this!” Raven struggling in his arms, trying to break free from him before Ruby fire another hit. But Vaugh tighten his grip around her waist. “Vaugh, this is not your fight!” Vaugh ignore her completely, more like he was fascinated by his new abilities. He slashes his hands at the on coming fire balls, his smile widen as he knew he was no longer a week human. Raven kept on struggling, without any thoughts left in her mind, she burst into flames. Blue flames surrounded her body, Vaugh felt the heat of her flames, and he quickly let her go. She flew in midair, flames still on her skin. Something burst from her back as the flames make a shape of wings. Everyone stare as she slowly transforms herself. Ruby gasped, knowing she is in big trouble. Raven flames burst into thin air, showing her torn blood red clothing and her black feathers wings. Her nails were longer and her eyes were as red as a rose.

“Raven?” Ethen stood at the ground looking at her, [Why am I trembling?] everyone thought. Vaugh felt his hard beating faster, not in excitement but he was scared.

“Everyone out of my way!” Raven screams her hands burst into flames, she speed her way towards Ruby, all that was in her mind was hatred and revenge for that face. No more mercy is shown in her. “URSULA!!” she screams. Within seconds the sky was covered by smoke, only a clear blue flame was visible to them. Raven panted heavily, her wings no longer flapping as the gravity kick into place, pulling her down to earth. Vaugh flew as fast as he could to reach her, but it was too let.

“Raven, Wake Up!” he screams for her, his tears again flow afraid of loosing her. A gust of wind blew him away, at the night sky stood the shinning armors. Their white wings sparkles, one of them with the gold armor carried Raven within his arms.

“I am Nathaniel the leader of this army, the angle of fire. I ask humbly of you to surrender and come back with us. We can do this the easy way or the hard way.” His voice echoes throughout the night, with his hand signal all the angels were raise their swords and spears. Ruby started to run away, she howls for the wolves to come. Her eyes widen, looking into Vaugh’s eyes.

“You…no way, there is only one forbidden child!”

“Cough…too bad Ruby…no…cough…Ursula, there is two of us….ha-ha…cough cough…” Blood gush out from Raven mouth. With just the name Ursula, all the angels and wolves turn their gaze towards Ruby.

“Ursula? You told us are Ruby?” Ronal voice was full of hatred and anger. All the wolves starts to growl, Nathaniel nodded his head towards Ronal. Both of them in their eyes saw the same hatred and anger.

“Everyone, we have live in order to protect the peace among each other,” Nathaniel started to speak.

“We now found each other facing our enemy that we all hate the most,” Ronal continued on land.

“WE SHALL KILL!!” both of them shouted at the same time. Both angels and werewolves charge at Ruby, the war had begin.

Forbidden...part 3 {2}

2010-01-26T02:20:00.000-08:00

All the way back to 19 years ago, Vaugh saw himself as a baby in some weird man and woman arms. They cried standing at the hospital entrance, both of them touching him as much as possible. Vaugh couldn’t make out the weirdness he felt, something in their eyes is not right. He saw them giving his young self to the nurse. The woman held her tears, her innocent eyes was red once more she laid her hands on his baby face.

“My child, never give up to anyone…and…” her voice cracked. “And…I am so sorry...” without any other words she laid the key and a lock on his chest. Soon he was at the time where he first met Raven, she running around the backyard crying, her tears and silver hair caught his attention. Seeing her sad face he couldn’t resists himself from helping her, but the pain remain in his heart for his guardian came to bring him home.

“Vaugh, REMEMBER ME!” her screams echo trough his mind. Vaugh heart beat faster knowing he could finally sees what happen after she screams. His young self turn around looking into her eyes, but something stab him from behind. His guardian stabs him, his throat stuck with blood. “VAUGH!!!” Raven screams even louder, no longer her eyes were crying something in her change. She spread her black wings up high into the sky, her nails grew longer and her eyes bloodshot red. “Let Vaugh go!” she screams on top of her lungs. She slashes everything on her way, the nurses and doctors rush out turning into werewolf and vampire charges at them. Without any energy Raven sang, her voice so beautiful yet so deadly. Everyone faint on the ground as they heard the song, screaming in pain. She held young Vaugh in her arms tightly, she started to whisper softly. She cut her hand letting her blood flow into his mouth. Slowly he saw himself breathing back, everything was bloody but Raven sends him to another hospital leaving him there and disappearing into the night.

“She saved me…I died…” his voice trembles. The image changes to that night, after so many years have passed, he finally met her but never realize who she was. After everything black out, Raven again uses her blood to cast a spell.

“With this blood I make a deal,” her starts to echo trough the night. “A deal to turn back time, my blood that gives you power and frame, I plead that you turn back the time n save everything and anyone who was injured.” Within seconds everything change, the old lady no longer bleed but walking her way home. Raven took him home laying all his family and him soundly back to bed. She lay there beside him for a while, holding his hands tightly. “Vaugh…try remembering me…” she sad softly before disappearing into the night, without a thought Vaugh gasped.

“She had always been saving me…why I don’t remember her until now?!” he shouted searching the answer from the voice.

‘Because if I shown you everything before you couldn’t take it, you fool.’ The voice signed. ‘Anyway call me when you need me…I am not name “ooi” or “Hey you”.’ Back in reality Vaugh without a second thought called out to him.

“Joseph, I open the gates to let you free!” he howls into the moon. Again the energy and strength suddenly feel his body. Something spread widely from his back and his hands turns into claws. Ronal stare at him, looking at him disbelief.

“You are the kid! You are the one that was not supposed to be here!” he roars for his men to attack with all they got. Ethen jumping in front of Vaugh protecting him, slashing and biting into Ronal throat, without any second Raven jumped into view too.

“Ethen protect you, you help Raven. You Raven friend also Ethen friend!” all of them attack without any hesitation. Jasfer collapse on his knees, he mind full with science couldn’t find any logic in this entire creature he is seeing. Wolves as big as horse, vampire baring his fangs, and Vaugh standing there no longer human, he tries to speak but nothing could come out.

“Jasfer, stay behind me” Vaugh looked at him noticing his friends was mere human. Jasfer struggles to get up, but his legs gave away, his wound open as blood gush out from it. Vaugh understand the shock and pain, he held Jasfer in his arms, supporting his weight. “What ever you do, never let this hand go. You have always been there for me, now is time for me to protect you.” Jasfer knew that Vaugh no longer need him, he was strong enough to protect himself, strong enough to know everything. Bells tickle in Vaugh’s ear; he looked around searching for the sound of bells.

“Angels!” Ethen screams. Everyone started panic but Ronal roar placing the wolves in their positions again.

“Angels or no angels, we are warriors! We don’t stumble at the sight of angel! We have been train, to be strong and to fight!” with only those words the wolves stood their ground. Ignoring Vaugh and the others, facing their enemy with pride and determination, soon the angels appear with spears and swords.

“Protect the boy and the girl! Kill the wolves!” the leader screams. Both sides charge and fight, blood flows from one direction to the other, many died and many were injured. Raven couldn’t stand it she wants to screams for a stop, but something else caught her attention. Her eyes fixed on the sky, something was there. Spreading her wings she flew up, she stood at the air looking around.

“Everyone run!” she suddenly screams rushing towards Vaugh and Ethen. She held them all in her arms throwing them aside into the woods, she blast her energy sending both wolves and angel flying out into the woods. No time to hide or run something with fire crash into her causing a massive blow. Everything was quiet to her ears, her legs and arms couldn’t feel anything. Her eyes staring into a black universe, [Finally, I am dead. No more war shall befall to this world] she smile to herself, but something in her heart is aching. [That pain, why there is a pain in there.] Within the darkness something red drips, she started to swim in the pool of red liquid. [So sweet…] she licked the liquid. [So sweet, this blood…] electric shock her body by the word blood. [Blood?! Whose blood?! This is not Vaugh’s blood.] She opened her eyes looking into her familiar eyes. “Ursula…?” her voice trembles.

“Wrong my dear, I am her clone I name myself Ruby.” Vaugh’s homeroom teacher smiled.

Forbidden...part 3 {1}

2010-01-24T07:35:00.000-08:00

No one moved, no one talked, only the sound of Ethen crying echo trough the night. Vaugh sat there motionless, debating in his mind of things he could possibly do. [I should bring her to the hospital…yeah! The hospital!] He jumped up suddenly surprising Ethen.
‘Are you crazy?” again that voice appears. ‘You bring her there; people there will only be killed…’
“Than suggest something, I don’t want to be sitting here and seeing her die!” Vaugh shouted and swings his hand furiously. Ethen looked at him thinking he had finally gone mad.
‘You already know the answer, is up to you to do it or not,’ again it disappear. Vaugh stare at Raven dying eyes, her breath gotten slower each time, Vaugh’s mind tell me something else, but his heart told him the truth. He shook his head shaking all the fear away. He walked towards them ignoring Ethen hissing at him. He reaches out to her but Ethen tighten his grip.
“You want her to be alive?” Ethen nodded. “Than listen to me, I can save her but it is up to you to let me have her.” Ethen looked confusedly at Vaugh than at Raven, finally giving up. Without at hesitation, Vaugh cut his wrist allowing his blood to flow into her mouth. Raven eyes shot open as the sweet and juicy blood lay on her lips. The eagerness and thirst of hunger drives her instinct to wild. She held onto his wrist drinking every drop of his blood. Each second she realize her victim was Vaugh, she screams to stop but her instinct kept her going for she needs the energy. Ethen stare at them, couldn’t believe that Vaugh will go to such length for her. But as each second passes by, Vaugh face got paler and paler, Ethen step up asking Raven to stop but she growl at him warning him away from her prey. Raven kept on drinking with a stop, but the presence of a new footstep interrupted her, along with a strong pull, breaking her and her victim apart.
“Are you crazy?!” someone shouted at her, she growl and bares her fangs. “Look at him for God sake!” then she only knew what she had done. Vaugh laying Jasfer arms tired and pale, he mumbles her name over and over again. “ARE YO…” he suddenly felt something stuck on his throat, he coughed looking onto the floor of blood, and soon he realizes the pain on his chest as he looked down three sharp claws stuck out from his chest. “Vaugh…run…” he collapse on the floor. Vaugh lay there unable to move, the werewolf from earlier stood there before him, ready to slash into his throat anytime soon. He closed his eyes, waiting for the pain to come, he scold himself for being useless.
‘You know you could always release me.’ The voice again appears out of no where. ‘Just call my name, and all the power will be yours truly.’ Vaugh fight back, knowing if he turns into that again he will loose control. ‘Let me show you something before you decide to say anything.’ Some how time stop at that moment, everyone stood still. Vaugh looked around but no one moved or even blinked. ‘It’s only temporary, I will show you the past of this lock door,’ Vaugh steps back as he was in white space with a metal door and chains around it. ‘And show you the reason why it was lock.’ Slowly the image changes and the time flew back 19 years ago. ‘This is where your life begin.’

to be coninue..

Forbidden part 2...

2010-01-11T23:42:00.001-08:00

Raven sat the balcony of her apartment, she looked into the moon. [Ah, such a wonderful view, tonight there will be good meal.] She sniffed the air and smirk a smile. The corner of the street she heard a scream, [dinner time…] She thought to herself. She rush towards the street of fear, a young girl lay there leg injured. Raven saw behind in the shadows something moved, she got closer to the girl allowing her meal to attack her. She needs to feed at least once a month; she uses full moon for an easy meal, because the entire werewolf will be out to play on this night. Her prey attacks her not knowing he was a prey himself. She held his hand tight punching him down onto the ground.

“Ouch, please…please,” her plead. “Let Ethen go…please Ethen wont do any wrong.” He pleads again. Raven looked at him skinny body and his hair loosing its shine. [Ethen…isn’t that the vampire lord’s son? What is he doing out here this thin?] She thought to herself looking up and down the little boy’s body. She let him go nodding her head towards the girl. Without any hesitation he pounce towards the girl and started his meal. Raven couldn’t watch any longer for her stomach was also growling for food. She left without any word; she again stood high above everyone, sniffing the air for blood scent, looking far into the distance for her prey, hearing out for screams of help in the back alley. And again something rustle behind her; she jumped catching her small skinny prey again.

“Ethen…Ethen know you hungry. Ethen bring you to a place where you can feed.” He started to move in the shadows. Raven sat there looking at him debating to herself; at last she stood up and followed him. He brought her to a park nearby the city; she looked around thinking the place was familiar to her. As she realize it was the park opposite Vaugh’s house.

“Ethen, why you bring me here?” she asked curiously.

“Ethen heard that werewolf going to attack that house tonight and kill a boy,” he pointed straight towards Vaugh’s house.

“Listen here Ethen, my name is Raven and now I need you to help me. That house they say they are going to attack I want you to go to that house up stair window, inside there is a boy you must protect him no matter what. Do you understand?” Ethen nodded his head, he ran as fast as possible to the house Raven pointed. He climbed up the window knocking hardly, hoping Vaugh would open it.

“Ok, who is that in the middle of the night?!” Vaugh angrily open the window looking outside to nothing. Ethen pop his head out from the side looking directly into his eyes. Vaugh stumbled a few steps back by the sudden head popping out of no where. “Who the hell are you?” without answering Ethen step into the room offing the lights and leaving only a small gap of the window open.

“Ethen come protect you, Raven told Ethen to protect you.” He said calmly looking out the window.

“Who is Raven?” he looked out the window with Ethen and to his surprise there at the center of the park stood her. [That girl from the other night…so it wasn’t a dream…!] He panics. He pace around the room calming himself down, than he looked out the window again, [So her name is Raven…] he sat there beside Ethen looking out into park where Raven stood still.

‘Who is there?’ a whisper came from the shadow. ‘Who are you?’ it continues to answer. Raven looked around counting the numbers of werewolf. ‘What are you doing here?’ the whisper continued to ask.

“I am here to have my meal, and my name is Raven.” She replied with confident and hunger. Her eyes grew redder each second; her fangs sharpens ready to sink into any skin. She braces herself ready for any attack.

‘What is the princess of hell doing in this area?’

“Dinner, tonight I must feast and it so happen you are my meal.” Something crawls out from the woods. As high as a horse, a wolf stood out looking at her. He walked towards her looking into her eyes properly; he smelled the hunger of her stomach. He bowed down on his belly, a gesture of innocent and he looked again into her eyes. Growls were heard from behind, the wolf snaps at them ordering them to stop.

‘Princess, I offer you my blood but you must allow me to kill first as your father as order us to kill.’ It softly in her mind, he sent image of her father giving the order to kill Vaugh.

“I am sorry, Ronal. I can’t grant you that wish, that boy that you are about to kill is my lover. Once you kill him, my soul will also fade, you know how the night world work when we find our soul mate.” She answered politely hoping that he would understand. “My father sent you to do this is because I have disobeyed him and wanting to be with this human. He sent you to kill him to destroy me.” She continued. Ronal looks around than back at her, his eyes show understanding but the order he receive must be done.

‘I am sorry princess, but I got to do what I have been ordered to do.’ He said silently, sadness was shown in his eyes. [He is a wise one, but I still got to avoid the attack.] She thought for ideas in her mind. Ronal howl and order and few wolf rushes towards Vaugh house. Vaugh stare at the wolfs coming towards him, he rushes out from the house avoiding any harm to his family again. The wolf followed him as he ran pass them towards Raven.

“What the hell are you doing?” Raven shouted at him as he reaches her.

“I am not going to put my family into danger again. If I want to face this I got to…” before he finished Raven push him hard and he fell down onto the ground. Something sticky and wet fell on his face, he wipe it off with his hands. Bright red color covers his hands and shirt. Raven fell on the ground howling in pain, blood rushes out from her arm. Ronal howl and snarl his teeth at Vaugh, ready to charge at him again. Raven got up, eyeing Ronal, she moved in front of Vaugh with a protective stands.

“Vaugh, no matter what stay behind me.” Her voice shakes a little. Vaugh nodded his head, not knowing what to do. Wolves all around charge at them, Raven fought easily as her stomach is hungry. Vaugh stood behind her speechless, [Who the hell are they?] Ethen joined the fight too; Raven was having her fun time as she feed. Bells was heard from the distance, suddenly an arrow shoot from high above stab Raven chest.

“Raven!” Ethen scream her name, he rushes to Raven side scoping her up in his skinny arms. He looked up in the sky with despite. “You will pay for it!” he screams into the sky. Vaugh stood there shocked, his muscle couldn’t move, he stare at the sky where Ethen scream at. Moment later when Raven and Ethen was gone, something flew down from the sky. Angels from heaven flew down, sending their spears towards the running wolves.

“You there, human!” the commander shouted at Vaugh. “Who is responsible for all this killing? If I am not wrong there was another two human like creature fighting this wolves. Am I right?” Vaugh started to tremble and thinking he was dreaming of a magical fantasy world. [There can’t be a world with angels and werewolf…no I must be dreaming...] He screamed in his mind, he fell on his knees thinking he must have gone mad.

‘Follow that girl...’ someone whispers in his mind. Looking around for the voice he heard. ‘Follow that girl…she is dying…’ Vaugh thought for a second, pushing himself up from the floor, the next thing he knew he was running into the woods after Raven. He kept on running until he reaches the river; there Ethan sat besides Raven crying. Vaugh ran towards them, as he got closer Ethan hissed at him, warning him to stay away.

“You brought her to this, those angels were protecting you!” he screams with tears in his eyes. Vaugh hesitate, he stood there scolding himself for his useless, don’t know what to do or how to help. He stood there in silence, only Ethan cry could be heard as he call Raven’s name to the sky.

Forbidden...part 1

2009-12-11T21:20:00.001-08:00

“Puff…puff…” a young girl ran across the backyard of the hospital under the rain. She dances beautifully. A young boy behind the glass of window look at her, his eyes wonders who she is.
“You, how many time I told you not to go under the rain! You are sick!” a nurse holding an umbrella quickly walked towards her. She stops dancing and glance up at the boy. She smiled at him, he quickly turn away in shocked that she actually smile at him.
“Hi, you are the boy who always look at the sky.” The sudden voice makes him jump, as he glares at her. “Sorry, didn’t mean to scare you…” she shyly walked towards him and touches his hand. He looked at her and at that moment he knew that she was the one he wants to be with. The smile on her face he eagerly wants to protect. They chatted and laugh in please but fate cruelly brings them apart.
“I won’t forget you!” she shouted at him, standing at the gate looking at his back. He turns around looking at her crying face. He looked at his father than at his hands. His father nodded his head, the young boy ran back towards her holding her hand closely to his.
“For this key can only open this lock,’ he said silently into her ears. As he wear the key around her neck and locking his lock around his neck. “I will wait for you to come and find me. No matter where we may be I will find you to open this lock.” He smiled and kisses her hands. Nurses and witnesses all sign with a happy joy laugh. He turns his back once more, knowing he will protect that smile. The young girl who promises herself not to cry burst into tears.
“I will remember you Vaugh!! I will remember you!!” She screamed at the tope of her lungs. He turns around wanting to give her the most charming smile he got. But as he turns around…
[V...GH...Le...UT…LET...OUT...OH MOTHER FUCKER JUST LET ME OUT!!!!] A voice screams in his head sending him screaming in the middle of the class. His teacher looked at him furiously.
“VAUGH!!GET OUT OF MY CLASS!!!” Miss Ruby his homeroom teacher screamed at the tops of her lungs chasing him out of the class with her book. [Man, that Vaugh always sleeping in class…] classes continued as usual and soon the bell ring for school to end and activities to start.
“Out of all place this is where the prince charming had been hiding.” Jasfer, Vaugh best friend with light blue eyes and build up body the second prince charming in school, he lay next to Vaugh and sign. “Dude, you know you should stop sleeping class. You are getting Miss Ruby pist off you know.” All he got for an answer was a big sign for Vaugh. They lay there looking at the skies.
“Hey, you know I dreamt about that girl again.” Vaugh started to talked.
“The one in your childhood?”
“Yea…that girl. I really wonder who is she…and why I keep on stopping at the part I turn around wanting to look at her for the last time?”
“Could it be that something wants you to forget about her?”
“No idea. I feel like I am into something but still don’t know what it is about…” he touches the lock around his neck. [All I know is this lock will bring me to her…or maybe bring her to me…] they lay there silently until the school activity had end.
“Oops! I got to go! My dad is coming home!” Vaugh laugh and jump around the place happily. It has been a year since he last saw his father. The sunset was beautiful and the moon was already up. [Ah…what a beautiful full moon it will be tonight.] He thought to himself. He reaches his home, the excitement he had felt in years. [Why is all the light off?] He walked inside silently. “Mom…Dad…Lucy?” he call softly. [Where are they?] “Hey guys, stop it. You can come out now I am already spoke.” He walked slowly into the hall. He felt his legs stepping on something wet, the moon light shine brightly into the room. He looked down slowly and there at his feet was a pull of red water. A pair of hands slowly appears at the back holding him down covering his mouth. He struggle and started scream but the voice behind him froze him on the spot.
“Shhh…listen,”
“Mom?”
“Shhh…listen my boy, you got to run…run away! RUN!!!” she screamed as something pulled her away from him. He slowly turns around looking into the eyes of his worst nightmare. There stood something fury and its fangs, snarling at Vaugh. Vaugh screamed as it threw his mother aside like a trash. Vaugh ran for his life, turning back each time looking at the beast after him. [This has to be nightmare! Wake up Vaugh!] He screamed in his mind.
‘You don’t have to run,’ a voice appear in his head. ‘You won’t have to die.’ It continued to speak. [Who are you?] ‘Me? I am you, you are me. Who else can I be?’ the beast lunch at him, but he dodge. The beast snarled at him. ‘If you don’t want to die than you got to let me out’ [How the hell am I going to do that?] he screamed again dodging every single attack the beast gave him. ‘Can you stop screaming? I am here you know.’ [Help me…] Vaugh plead in his mind. ‘I can help you…all you have to do is to call me name.’ before Vaugh could reply the beast caught him.
“Your family is delicious, and I smell a great deal in your blood too.” Vaugh stare at it shocked that it actually talked. [Help me…] he again pleads in his mind. ‘CALL MY NAME!’ the voice screamed!
“Darkness of all soul hear my plead, JOSEPH!!” Vaugh screamed at the top of his lungs to the moon. Slowly he felt the burst of energy run trough him. His body toughens up; he felt his hand sharpen into claws. The beast started to tremble in fear, as it watches Vaugh change.
“No…it couldn’t be. The eyes of heaven and hell, the claws of the dragon, the wings was a devil. You can’t be, you can’t be that forbidden child.” It started to tremble even more. Vaugh felt the anger in him, he crush the beast head into pieces, but the thirst in his throat eager him to find more blood. He raises his head slowly, sniffing the air.
‘Ah…the human smell their juicy blood.’ [I want it so bad.] Slowly his body started to move charging at the innocent human. As he got closer and closer, Vaugh suddenly realize his action. He wanted to stop but no longer was he controlling his own body. [Please make it stop!] He started to scream again. [Joseph, make it stop!] But no reply was given to him. He started to panic as got closer to the old lady he was after. [Help someone!] He screamed. Suddenly his body jerk to a stop, he sniff the air again.
“Stop you beast!” a high female voice but firm and fierce shouted from behind. He turns around finding a young girl with silver hair standing there looking at him. [Help me!] He screams again, but his body charges towards her. She jumps up high avoiding his attack, something sparkle around her neck. He couldn’t make out what it was but it worked on taking his attention. “Vaugh, stop this!” she talked again. [How does she know my name?] He snarled at her, ready himself with an attack position. “Vaugh listen to me, I know you don’t want to hurt anyone. So please stop.” [I want to! But I can’t. Please help me!] He called out in his mind. “Vaugh…please…” she pleads in her eyes there was a pain and sad mix around with a little happiness. He charges at her, raising his claw, the next thing he knew and felt was a sharp pain on his heart. He fell onto the ground, slowly changing back into his human form. She kneeled down beside him, holding him in his arms. “Vaugh…I am sorry. I am so sorry.” She started to cry. [Why are you sorry?] He thought. [Where have I seen you before?] A gold key hang from her neck, as she held him close to her. Tears fell onto his face. [Salty…] He sight slowly fading. [Why are you crying? Why do you have the key?] He has so many questions to ask. His vision slowly fade, he saw her talking but couldn’t make out the words. [Who are you? What are you saying?] He pass out, and opening his eyes with the loud ring of his alarm clock. [Morning already? Mom, dad, Lucy?!] he quickly rush down stairs.
“What is the rush boy?” a sound so familiar to him.
“Father!” he rush towards his dad hugging him tightly.
“Wo-ah, what happen to you? You look like you haven’t seen me in like a thousand years.” His dad laugh.
“Don’t ask anything dad I am just glad you are here.” He hugs them tightly. His father looked at mother thinking something was wrong with his son. But little did they know that everything is about to begin…

To be continued!

His Guilt

2009-12-06T04:31:00.001-08:00

In the dark place
Where no one knows
A girl with a devil heart
Cries alone
Abandoned by her parents
For she belongs to the devil
High above an angel saw
His heart soften
Thinking she is just a child
He left his palace
Wanting to be her guardian
He held his arms wide
Welcoming her in his arms
She cries as she walked
Tearing even more
She lay in his arms
Looking into his light blue eyes
He stroke her gently
Humming a beautiful lullaby
But soon felt a pain in his heart
He looked down at the little girl
As she no longer look innocent
Her bright red eyes
Stare at him with tears still falling
He fell down on the earth
Regretting helping her
As God above shook his head
Guilty fills his heart
For creating this devil
To rule the underworld
And hide it into this little girl's heart.

Guardian Angel

2009-10-07T04:59:00.000-07:00

Imagine she holding my hand
Imagine she kissing my lips
The warm and sweet taste of her gum
Flowing into my mouth
I remember holding her in my arms
I remember her smile
Everything she said
Linger in my head
Everything she does
Stays memory in my heart
I look into the sky now
Wondering where she is
I know I can never have her
For she is happy with someone
Far above the sky
Jess, I could never say goodbye
I am standing here before your grave
Holding the black rose you love
No matter how much I pray
For you to return to me
But I wish you could be
My guardian angel from the above

2009-07-17T08:04:00.000-07:00

She fell to earth
Down to hell
The sin she did
Was falling in love with Lucifer from hell
She lay there screaming in pain
Her wings nailed to the wall
The devils pluck her feathers each day
Lucifer stood before her one day
He smile with please
Knowing that the purest angel
The royal angel had fell for him instead
He let her go
Holding her in his arms
She sobs heart tears away
Looking into his dark black eyes
He whispers something in her ear
Causing her to scream again
Her white wings slowly turn black
She looks one last time into the sky
She lay in his arms
Gasping for air
Here comes the Queen
Of the Red Rose Garden of Despair
Cover by blood
She took all those souls
She drank their blood
She cut their throat
She laughs in please
Her smile widen
But deep in her heart
She aches even more!

2009-07-17T08:02:00.000-07:00

They say that you are dumb
A person who only knows how to study
In school they always call you a pig
And a old fashion girl
They make fun of you
I didn't know anything about you
I thought the rumors were true
You sat at the corner
Munching down your sandwich
Soon I was assign to you
For a science project on due
You smile and say you were glad
That I didn't reject
We help each other
And we share our problem
But one day they came
With anger and jealousy
They stab you behind my back
They left you there dead for good
Lucky I found you
Doctors shook their heads
I finally stood before you
Tears started to fill my eyes
But the thing that make me cry
Is your smile and touch
Your eyes were shinningY
our smile was bright
Your last words to me
Touch deep down in my heart
Thank you Amanda
And you will always be my shinning star!

2009-07-07T03:49:00.000-07:00

I don’t know if it just me or is it the same with you. Everywhere I went you are there sitting with your friends. Your eyes always glancing into my group of friends right into my eyes. I always thought that I’m just imagining things but as days pass by it just became so clear that I was the one you are looking at. I didn’t know who you were, I didn’t know where were from just that you are the mysterious guy that I always see around. No matter in cafeteria or computer lab to the school library there you are sitting there either with friends or by yourself studying. Those cloths you wear caught my attention your style caught my eyes, sometimes I wonder if it is just fate doing its job after all. But I rather not put my hopes high until one day you came to me. Sat beside me in the computer lab, I sat there nervous at first thinking should I say hi or should I just shut up…. But you again save me from the breaking point, you said hi and introduce yourself.
At that moment your voice caught me off-guard. Damn…I don’t know what to say. Introduction was made, your eyes kept on looking into mine. Embarrass by it I kept on looking away, back into the screen of my assignment. There you sat no longer talking just looking into my screen. I guess you knew I was nervous; you took a book out writing down the words you feel like saying. Again you said your name and asked for mine, we sat “talking” and I guess it was kindda fun. Hehe, we started to go out as friends and slowly we knew each other more.
Weeks pass and soon now is a month later, and here I am writing a blog about you. Finally you asked me out, holding my hand your eyes looked deep into my soul, scare as always I was, holding on to the thought that you couldn’t be the one and another heart breaking will be done, or could you like some other guys who lied or maybe dislike my friends?? But you arms gave me the security that you could accept who I am, or who I was in the pass. Now we walked together, held each other tighter den ever, I couldn’t imagine a world without you. I can’t words into this feeling all I can say is I really do love you…:) muaks!!!!

2009-07-07T03:25:00.000-07:00

I want to watch the moonlight,
Held close in your embrace...
The starlight sky above me,
As I look into your face.
To rest my weary head,
Comfortingly next to you...
Coz there's no where on this earth,
I'd rather be than be with you.
Sweet moments here I cherish,
With no thought of self or time...
Just knowing every heartbeat,
That you take so close to mine.
It fills me.. it completes me,
The love you've given me...
I never shall forget it,
Because it's become a part of me.

Cold and Stiff

2009-06-17T05:39:00.001-07:00

The thousand screams
Rush out into the face of earth
The blackness of a broken heart
Float around in endless time
Her eyes no longer had the smile
The smile of an innocent angel
Wishing to be held by big wide arms
Her smile no longer exist
As her heart has been broken into pieces
The moment she needed someone
No one was there to held her in their arms
The moment she need someone
To cry and scream on
No one was there to clam her down
She screams for help in her heart
She pleads God to give her a path
But no one
No one had ever answer her prayers
No one had even listen to her heart calls
She shut herself in her shell
She screams to herself in her shell
Slowly day passes by
And soon she held her arms tight
She locked away her mind
She show no emotion
Only a smile to please people
Every night she screams
Every night she cut herself
As the blood flows down
As the sharp pain she felt
Slowly she gasped for air
Knowing she is still alive
She cut her wrist even deeper
Smiling as she feels the pain every second
But soon her life was drawn away
Into nothingness and emptiness
Where her body lay
Cold and stiff
Her soul slowly fades away.

2009-06-16T18:15:00.000-07:00

No longer can she fly
As she lost her grace
The memory so dear to her
Slowly fades away
There at the face of earth
She stood high and mighty
Mortal to the God above
No memories, nothing she could know
But the voices rings in her head
The world will end
Under the hands of time
The hero of the world
Lay in hell
The rise of Lucifer
The prophecy shall be true
The land that all angels love
Soon will perish into dusk and flame
The demon will come
To take her away
Bring her to their lord
Where he lay
Her fear of death
And her love for God
She ran into darkness
Killing herself in the arms of the angels
She screams her soul to fly
Fly into heaven where she belongs
She had serve her God
To her last breathe

The Return Of The Werewolf

2009-06-11T22:20:00.000-07:00

I ran away from home, from the sight that I can’t ever imagine. Blood spatter on my shirt, I ran as fast my feet can fly, running into the dark universe I can never imagine. Ever cell in my body is burning in flame; I can’t stand the pain as I ran. My nightmare never seems to move away, he stood there behind me everywhere I go, his cunning smile on his face never seem to fade. His evil smile make the hair behind my neck stand, he lick his lips showing his fangs covered by blood. As he walk his body slowly change, no longer a man was walking behind me, but a wolf, a werewolf stood there. His saliva drop down to the face of earth, I knew that I got to run again before he sank his fangs into me again. I ran into an abandon house, covering my mouth to muffle my scream, I control my breathing so his ears won’t pick up any sound of me. But I know he will smell me out, I just lay there hoping that he had something wrong with his nose. The thrilling pain grew worst every minute I muffle my scream, I couldn’t stand it anymore. I scream into the dark night sky, I body burning in thousand flames, knife stabbing into my soul and guts. I stood up higher than usual; I look at his tall dark fury body. I growled in anger, wanting to take the revenge. I want to tear him apart I want to kill him the same way he kill my parents, but his sad eyes stop me. His eyes shine beautifully under the night sky; I knew that I can’t harm him. His body scent came into me, I knew this person, and I know his from a long time ago. His smile no longer cunning but please, he bowed his head down lowering his pride. For I’m his queen and princess, he has been waiting for me for a thousand years. He had let his pride down for me. I howl to the moon, thanking her to guide my king and prince to me. For I am the leader of the night, the hunter for vampires and the soul of eternity!

2009-06-03T18:28:00.000-07:00

If only there is a soul
Who will save the people on earth
If only there is a soul
Who will give everything he had to the poor
A young girl sat at her room
Dirty and ran down
She sat there praying to her God
To grant her that beautiful soul
She will steal from the rich
And give it to the poor
She will save the sick one
And give her life up to them
She pray that someone can grant her
The power of a warrior
The power of an angel
The sight of an eagle
And the strength of a dragon.
She will take the sword
And kill those who are in her way
For she is Auther
The future king to be
For her name carry the legend
And prophecy
And she will be the KING.

Welcome To My World

2009-06-03T18:21:00.000-07:00

She sat the corner, her arms held on tight to her teddy bear. She doesn’t know where or what she was in, all she knew is around her was pitch black without a single hope of light. She sat there looking into the darkness, her tears roles out from her eyes, her heart scream towards her parents, but something was pulling her voice behind. Slowly she falls asleep, leaving the reality world behind her. After hours or maybe days, it finally stops. She was too sleepy to tire to move or talk all she did was holding on to her teddy bear tight so that no one can separate her from it. She heard the door in front of her opened. Her heart beat like a thousand bullets shooting out from a machine gun. She closes her eyes even tighter, hoping they won’t know she was awake. Voices of man was heard, a language that she don’t know. One of them gently carries her out from the can, she felt herself floating in a wonderful world. Like she was flying away, the wind blew gently at her face. Something opened and a fragrant of rose smile swept into her nose. She took a deep breath, enjoying her last moment of human life before she becomes a slave to this mysterious people. Slowly again she fall into deep sleep, the next thing she knew she was laying on her soft bed and silky cloth touching her skin. She jump up and look around, she was dressed in a pink silk night gown, and her teddy bear clean and fresh stayed beside her. The light was strong and she took time to focus, around the room was dolls and laces stuff. She never in her life had this room, or even seen this type of room. The door crack open, a gentle man walked in with a smile on his face, her pale wide face relaxes and she saw him. He called her name gentle with love. She stares into his eyes looking for clues of her being in this place. He took her around the house showing his family to her, all of them greeted her with please and kindness. Night soon came and she was back in her room, the moon light shine in beautifully into her white gown. He came in asking her question, but she couldn’t understand. She shook her head looking sad in her eyes. He hugs her tightly, using songs to clam her down. So long she had never felt this warmth of a person. A sharp pain on her neck was felt, she screams but he covered her mouth with his hand. Flash back of memory swept by her eyes. Than she realize she was sold, sold to this man who said he can save her life from that sickness. She stopped her struggle towards this man, she stop her breath, letting him drink her blood to she is dry. She felt her blood flowing into him, hearing his thoughts at the same time. Her white dress was taint with blood like rose. She couldn’t muffle her scream and his hands had let go. She screams and her felt her teeth grew longer. Fangs was shown, he got up licking his lips. Now no longer a human but a night creature who no one knew about, this man had save her life. Now she stands tall on the high buildings, looking down at the pathetic world she once knew, as screams from the back alleys was heard, she lick her lips and creak a smile in please. Everyone of her victim was never given any mercy; she tore them apart letting their blood flow into her mouth in please. She is the night justice to the people in normal day life, but to the government and police, she is the murderer they can never figure out. At the end of her day, all she will say “WELCOME TO MY WORLD”.

A Night In A Hunted House

2009-05-26T05:17:00.000-07:00

The moon light shines into the massive hall, the dust dances around the room. White sheets covers the house, many people saw “things” in this house. Some saw light flicking in the rooms some heard the piano played late at night and some even heard a woman crying. This house has been named hunted for a very long time and no one ever dared to stayed in this house until tonight a stupid boy stood up for a dare and end up in this mess. I sat there at the corner of the room not wanting to attract any attention, every second passes by it felt like hours. I sat there controlling my shivering body. The grandfather clock sang through the hall into the rooms and out into the open air. Midnight strike as I sat there looking into the hall, I really regret that I accepted tat stupid dare. As the moon light was covered by the clouds, a pair of golden eyes appeared at the other corner of the room. It stares at me, ready to hunt my down. So much I feel like screaming, but as my mind was screaming to run my legs walked towards the eyes. Each every move I took its eyes follows my move, as I got closer it became tenser ready to pounce at its prey. As I got into the close range, it jumps out from the darkness. I fell backwards, dropping on my back; my hands quickly covered my face, I lay there waiting for its claws and fangs to sink down my meat slowly devour me as I scream. But the suspends took a long time to come.
“Meow~~” a cat? A cat?! I was actually imagining a cat as beast? I laughed at my stupidity, as I sat back at my corner. But the night is long, I sat there my heart no longer had its machine gun in it anymore. I sat there thinking of all the happy things, suddenly from the main entrance into the house the door creak open. Its creaking sound echo through the house. Footsteps was heard, its no animal footsteps, it was human footsteps; its rhythm don’t belongs to any animal. The footsteps got closer each time, I got up as silent as possible and started my journey out from the hall away from the footsteps. Could this be the owner of the house ready to take my soul? Could I have angered him by staying in his house? Machine guns are heard from my heart, each second passes by the machine gun doubles it’s shooting. I quicken my footsteps running away from the footsteps, but as I quicken it also quicken. It was chasing, I pray screaming to the lord in my heart. But unlucky me I trip and fell straight flat on my face. I cover my face again waiting for its hands to strangle me alive. Its cold hand touches my shoulder I scream like a kid, I can say if I got enough pee I would had pee in my pans.
“Lucifer…Lucifer!” that voice called to me, shaking me really hard. I know that voice, I know that voice anywhere. I was so relief when I saw my elder brother standing in front of me with his touch light. I was worried that his stupid brother will be in trouble and he had come for me! I was glad that he had come, we sat back down at the floor waiting for the sun rises in the morning. As the dawn light broke the sky, and the first ray light shine into the massive hall we walk out into the yard. I never loved the sun like that day, now I know that there aren’t any such things as werewolf or ghost. Everything are just our mind that are playing trick on us, I felt so relief that my legs went limb. My brother smiled at me, I never loved him so much as I love him now. Thank God everything is over, and I think I’ll never take another dare for staying in a hunted house ever again.

First day...sound kindda boring...

2009-05-22T08:40:00.001-07:00

Man…you wanna know what happen today? I tell you it was kindda fun and kindda boring. You see the orientation today starts at 10 but they asked us to gather at 9 o’clock. So I waited at the hall for the event to start. And let’s see….well…a Chinese girl from Brunei sat beside me her name was…let me think again, wait I know is coming into my mind…oh ya! It was Lina J she was cool and nice too. But the course she was taking was music. I think I was interested to ask her more, but u know I don really like to talk so much on the first day. Later a malay girl sat on my left side and well….she was from Brunei too! Both of them are older than me, and well… haha I’m the youngest. Later on as the speech started and the teachers are introduce to us, the student council took over the event. We played a few game and well get to know each other. You see at that progress I met another guy name Nigel. He was taming music course too, we went for lunch together in summit at Mcd and everyone have their time talking about crazy stuff, Nigel was kindda quiet in the group but is ok cause we talked to him and make him talk J lol I know we are kindda mean…. Then later speeches bout do’s and don’ts was given to us and well as the rest of the rules and stuff to know. I got to know another girl name aryssa…I think it is spelled like tat she was doing the same course as me. J Lucky I could make a friend, I was nervous of not making any new friends. The whole thing stops at 4 sharp but I was to go home at 6 like tat. So I sat at the hall waiting for time to pass and well…wat can u expects me to do in an hour? So I went to every fall and see what is what and well….look into teacher bout the music rooms. I was glad that they allowed non-music course student to use the practice music room for their needs if they wanna play their piano too. Well… my day went like tat and I eat some food before going home, mom and dad went for dinner in some kind of event returning home around 9 something and mom rush to her badminton. But by the look on her face I think she really had a great time J hahhaa I think tat’s all for today and I hope my classes will be fun by Monday. Now is the transport problem only. Wish me luck!!

New Life

2009-05-21T03:26:00.001-07:00

Yeppy!!! Finally there is there a time for me to spend time outside!! My life after NS has been real boring. Staying at home doing house chores and stuff really make me mad. I thought I was going to go crazy. Now tomorrow is my day at college in segi J I mean I cant wait for college to start! Wish me luck in my first day…and let’s see….wish me luck in makin new friends too…. Yeppy!!!

A stupid deal

2009-05-14T03:40:00.000-07:00

Taking back the words she said
Slamming the door in front their face
Crying alone in a room
She lay dead
She pray to God
Hoping He could hear her
But her prayers has never been heard
And nothing is done to her world
She tries harder each time
Hoping she will get it right.
But no one will look at her
And help her out
She slam the door again
Shutting herself into a dark universe
A voice whispers in her head
Granting the wishes she wants
Someone to understand
Someone to care
Not like her parents
Who only want to compare
The voice granted her wish
And the deal was made
Cold blood fills the house
With nothing left to be seen
She couldn’t believe her eyes
And she could believe the deal
How stupid was she
To strike a stupid deal
Now she knew that it wasn’t God who grant her the wish
It was the devil
Who took his chance with the condition she is in
She ask forgiveness from the mighty God
But she knew her sin was too great
And couldn’t be forgiven
She bow her head to the god of church
And sank her knees at his cross
Praying and waiting
Hoping that one day He could forgive her
And she could forgive herself

Their secret

2009-05-11T05:14:00.000-07:00

The night sky cracked, as a red flaming door appeared. The sight of a devil stood at the top of the massive door. The door slowly cracked open letting the screams from hell burst into the night sky. No human can see the door, but they know that its time someone’s soul will be taken tonight again. The screams grew louder and the night sky was burst with devils and demons. As humans sleep soundly hoping that they won’t be victim to the night creature, a man with red bright wings appeared. His eyes glows brightly, his fangs shows, his smile evilly as he scan for his preys of souls. Human screams were heard from the ally, as their blood splashed on the wall, they screams as the devils plug down into their body. He stood high above sucking the souls into his hands as his people enjoyed playing with the blood and innocent people.

Above in heaven, she looks down at the earth through her globe. Her heart pound and ache as each human was torture, her tears flows down as she cries out to their soul. Her voice reaches no one but him. He stares into the sky right at her face into her eyes. Anger hang in his mind, hatred was shown, he growl in delight. His evil smiles shake her badly, she curses him with anger but her eyes shows love and pain for him, and yet his eyes were the same. No one knew, they were in love, their differences had set them apart, but make their love stronger in certain ways. She reach our her hands to him widely as smile smiles with love, he reach out to her as he cries in agony to see her. They are in love and yet they can’t be together, but within her womb there lays their secret, a child is form. Having both heaven and hell blood within its body. That child shall be the lord of the world, the new law of the heaven and hell. But what could become of her and him and their child? For he is the hell’s lord and king, while she is the heaven’s goddess and queen.

An empty shell and a fading soul

2009-04-11T21:01:00.000-07:00

Taking back the words she said
The words that cause their friendship
To end in this way
She take back her life
Her heart, her soul
That she had given to him
But knowing that she will be never gud enough for him
Again she hide my feelings
Again she cry at night
Again she try to shut herself in darkness
But the voice whispers in her mind
Telling her there will be a reward soon
Waiting in the future,
Waiting for her to arrive there
Holding its hands out wide
Welcoming her with love and kindness
Here again she shut herself into darkness
She shut her life into a black universe
She held an invisible knife
Stabbing down into her soul
Killing another part of her pure soul
Killing the human in her
Killing the person she once was again
No longer she’ll have love, emotion or anger
All she is a little doll
With dark past
Who stab into her soul
To become what people want her to be
To be good enough
For people to acknowledge her
For people to love her
But with an empty shell
And a fading soul

Am I dead or alive?

2009-04-11T07:06:00.000-07:00

What do you think when the whole world is against you. Even Mother Nature turns her face away from you. I heard people say before that when you are going to die, your life will flash back like pages before your eyes, is it true? No one knew. For me I hated myself, I hated my life no matter what I try to do I never seem to be good enough. Yes the fact is that there are always greater people and better people in the world. But it seem that every corner I turn there is always this type of people waiting for me. My life is surrounded by people with brains and the right attitude that will make every parent proud, but what am I suppose to do in this world when everyone I see is better than me?
This is my life and it has been ruined since I was a child. You see when I was 4 years old; my mom took me to a Yamaha music school in a shopping mall. I was thrill and excited, my parents put me into a pre-primary school and guess what I didn’t even cry on my first day like other kids. I know I was strong and I don’t like to show my weakness to anyone. I thought I am the best among them, I score good grades. What you expect? It’s kina garden! I mean which kids won’t get good results!? So I thought I got all the smart brains like every other people, but guess what everything shatter as I grow up. Follow my brother’s footstep I got into the same primary school as him, a Chinese primary school. Again I didn’t cry at the first day I got there, I even make friends! She was a smart girl too, we are close but things happen between us making us separating into different groups. Being the top 5 in class, slowly I drop. The pressure gets stronger and stronger. As it grew I couldn’t help myself but drop. Every time I see people getting smarter and better it irritate me because I couldn’t be like them. I continued my studies blindly only following my dream of becoming a musician. The way the notes plays around my head and give me encouragement I needed in my life. But at some point I just want to give up my life. I held the knife slowly cutting my wrist; I just want to end my life in this world. The sight of me losing to everyone is just taking me to a level that I hate the world around me.
What can I do? The world is cruel anyway. No matter how much I hated my life or my soul there isn’t anything I could do. The knife just sat there in front of me, begging me to use it, to cut down my wrist to let the blood flow in please. But there is always something stopping me, a voice telling me there is much more to see in the world. That I’m not useless like I think I am, I know it’s true but the pressure are just killing me. And again I put the knife away thinking I could just ignore the pressure once more. I tried finding happiness in my life, I tried loving people and caring for them but it seems that none of them understand my pain. I felt lock up in my cage, my wings being cut away not allowing me to fly. Everyone have their moment to fly someone again whisper in my mind. So I waited for the time to arrive for my life to be free. Years pass after years, the older I grew the pressure just keep coming on. I tried to turn away from this but it always coming back. I change my attitude, and they go scolding me. “Where did the Cleo I knew go?” they always asked me this question. But I wonder again did I really go anywhere? Or is this what they cause me to be? I have totally no idea what I have become. How much I want to answer them that this is me! I am their daughter! But all I could do is stay in silent whisper that I’m already dead.
I grew older knowing that I could no longer be a smart girl anymore. I concentrate more in music as I love music. Music has been with me since I was a child the smoothing music can calm my heart. I know music is beautiful in many ways, but for me music is just like my life. I learn my music until I finish my grade 8 exams and taking diploma too. I fight with music I use music to fight away the evil thoughts around me. But soon it was shattered again. Another person my mom meet her child is a pro in music. She studies music and was success in life. Batter than anyone can be, again someone is better than me. Everything I try to impress them, there is always some bloody people coming into my life and shatter my dreams with a knife. Again the knife stood there in front of me; again I tried to end my life at that moment. I cut myself feeling the pain knowing that I’m alive and not dead. And there again a part of me is dead again. I hide my emotion, I hide my feelings, I hide my pain only letting me feel the pain once in a while to remind myself I’m still alive. As trap as ever, my wings are cut again, a knife stab into my wings and nailed me into the wall. I flap my wings trying to fly but the pain just throb my heart and mind. Another part of me in killed again, so am I dead or alive? Or should I just end my life to stop this miserable life that I’m going through? Or should I keep on listening to the voice whispering in my mind? Keep on living or end my life?

2009-03-30T05:13:00.000-07:00

stop pushing me around
stop giving me orders
stop all the things you are planning
cause i'm sick being your doll
obeying your rule
obeying your style
i have my life you live
i have my world to rule
stop forcing me into your dream world
stop making me hu u wan me 2 be
stop puttin hopes on me
cause i can never be
the one u can be proud of

2009-03-29T22:05:00.000-07:00

You have such an alluring face,
that keeps my heart beating...
starring at you,
at a long-term gaze,
is an awe-inspiring feeling.
I'd give anything,
to be with you;
a wish-fulfilling prayer...
I know my request will not come true;
all I want is to breathe your air.
You glimpsed at me,
from across the room;
If only you knew what I was thinking...
See that my love is a spreading fume,
it feels like my heart is singing.
Every beat would tell you a story,
on how much you mean to me...
On how you're my pride,
my joy and glory;
this feeling is a boundless loving spree.

2009-03-17T06:26:00.000-07:00

nothing is just as they said

everything i've done is just not enough

i said many times that this will end

but you sat at the above just won't stop

giving me different challenges

and not giving me strength

you took all of them away

all my love and happiness

you took my heart away

you took my soul away

now you left me as an empthy shell

so where did my heart go?

where did you put my soul?

i'm so empthy inside

i'm so crumble inside

safe me

i'm really dying now....

2009-03-17T06:21:00.000-07:00

if only the mighty God could hear

my plead and request

to guide me through here

to guide him through his days

to wait for my return

if he could talk to me

i'll plead him to tears

to make him wait

to make him stay

if he could hear me

as i pray and plead

oh God who rule the heaven and earth

please help me

i need your mercy and kindness

to shower on me with ur smile

please sent your angels down

to guide me through

help me to make him smile

for i plead you

missed....

2009-03-17T06:18:00.001-07:00

AH!!!! i miss them so much!!!! the freedom the live without nagging and scolding!!!!!

2009-03-17T06:10:00.000-07:00

A hatret heart

has been soften

a kind heart

has burst out into tears

the night that many look to

and many turn away

the night that we enjoyed till we drop

and 4get the sorrow ahead

the night to dance

the night to sings

the night that we enjoy and smile

and slowly we are going home

the last farewell

the last wishes

the last war cry we had

Go Delta we shout

4eva Delta we scream

tears pour out more as time passes

hearts broke as time passes

soon it's time

soon everyone will go

3 months of friendship

can never be told

I AM WHO I AM!

2009-01-29T01:38:00.000-08:00

Nothing is good in life
When something is gone
Only you will treasure it
What is the treasure in life?
What is the glory of life?
What is the main meaning of life?
I thought we are who we are?
But why am I being someone else?
I know nothing is true in life
Everything is a lie
Everything is happening for a reason
But for me
My reason
Is to be what I am
What I think
And who I want to be
Nothing can stop me
Nothing can stand in my way
Cause this is who I am….

BACK FROM NS

2009-01-29T01:32:00.000-08:00

Heloo…I’m back from NS for a week…and everything is good in NS. I make many new friends and well…some people I don’t kindda like hahaha…the activities there is fun some I skip some I join…lol…that’s is me. I cant stand is the morning and the taking bath part. Have to wake up around 5 in the morning. Much more early den going to skol…i don't wanna wake up so early!!! anyway i got to go already...><><>< see ya!!!

Thank You

2008-12-24T23:49:00.000-08:00

In the past
My life was never bright
Trap in my own world
Hiding my pain and stuff
Acting, playing and smiling
Was all in my mind
Telling me to shut myself up
And stop troubling other people
With my stuff
No light ever shown in my world
No hope
No love
Nothing just emptiness
But friendship came along
And soon you came along
The sun finally shone down
And the flower started to bloom
The sweet and gentleness
You’ve shown
Brighten my days
You carry me around the world
With your angel wings
All I want to say
Thank you for being there
Thank you for being in this world
Thank you for entering my life
Thank you for loving me
For you I’ll live to see the day
I’ll look forward for the sun rises
I’ll rise back up from my darkness
To love you
And be with you forever
Thank you.

Always Love You

2008-12-24T23:43:00.000-08:00

I don’t know how to say
I don’t know how show it
But you really lightn up my day
The sweet and kindness you gave
Just swept my heart away
Sometimes I maybe wrong
But to you,
You understand me more
No longer trap in my darkness
No longer trap in my past
No longer shall I cry at night
Thank you for stepping into my life
Now I won’t be alone anymore
For you will always be there for me
Caring me
Loving me
I’ll treasure each moment
I’ll treasure each second
Thank you for coming into my life
Being a light in the dark
Thank oyu for loving me
For I will always love you
Till the day I die.

She Can't Hate Him

2008-12-21T06:38:00.000-08:00

Another dark night has come
She stayed under her bed
Crying to herself
She hugs her mother picture
Tightly as possible
The clock strike midnight
And the hall clock rang
The door slam open
And he came in shouting
Drunk in his world
Grumbling and cursing
Again she was the victim to this crime
Bruises covered her body
She stood at his bed
As he lay on his bed soundly asleep
Looking down at him
With her devil eyes
The knight that she was gone
She held up the knife
Ready to strike down
Into his heart
Ready to his eyes in pain
Ready to hear his scream
Ready to see the blood flow from him
And laugh in please
But my hands shake
Not in fear…
But love…
She can’t bring herself to kill him
She can’t hate him
For he is her knight in the shining armor
For he is her beloved father…

Goodbye My Day Light

2008-12-21T00:46:00.000-08:00

Midnight strike
The time I asked for has gone
My heart pound as I hear the silent knock
On my window
Oh God, what have I done?
I have to face my darkest fear
For him I’ll become one
I mustn’t let people hear
I can’t scream
I can’t run
His eyes cast a spell on me
His eyes glows bright red
He smile with please
It’s been long
Since he had this pleasure
He can’t accept
The facts that I’m dying
He can’t stand the pain
Of my burning body
He can’t stand my tears
As he sank his fangs in me
But I can’t stop it
To live on
Beside him
I got to not stop
Sink your fangs further in
Suck my blood with pressure and please
My scream must be silent
My mind must be clear
I must be patient
So I could be with him under the moon light
Living my life with him for eternity
All I can say now
Goodbye my beautiful day light
This is the price I’ll pay…

Faster!!!!!!!

2008-12-20T07:41:00.000-08:00

lalalla....someone got someone...another person got someone!!! now one more person must have someone!!!!!!

Let Me Take Away Your Tears!

2008-12-20T06:26:00.000-08:00

Let me take away your tears
Let me be your angel
Let me take you up high into the sky
Let me sing your lullaby
Don’t say you are lonely
Don’t say that you are okay
Don’t keep it in your heart
I’m here for you
Forever I’ll be yours
When you cry
My heart hurt
Please don’t keep it in you
Tell me
I’ll be your angel
I’ll be your guardian
So tell me
Tell me your pain
Tell me your sorrow
And never keep inside you
Just remember I’m here
Loving you
Trusting you
Forever believing in you

princess night

2008-12-20T06:22:00.000-08:00

Well…there isn’t anything for me to say. Everything in my life seems to be going just nice, but now I’m worried is just it is going just too fine. Beside the fact that I still get scolding from my parents, but I still love them; no one can take them away from me no matter what. So I think I don’t really have anything to say. The fact that I’m in love with someone so special in my life, he took me out from my sleep. Woke me up with his gentleness, I miss him so much but I can’t meet him properly.
I think my Thursday night was the most special night ever. It was prom, and everything was like a fairy tale for me. Finally in my 17 years of live, I’m a princess that night. Not only me, every single girls are princesses that night. Boys as charming as prince and so is mine. Nothing can compare to that night where every single fantasy came true. Although I was sick, got a slight fever but my prince makes everything alright for me, thanks to him, I’m much better now. Now I’m looking forward for Christmas Eve and Christmas day!! I won’t be getting any present; everything is already done because of prom. Well…I got a good fairy tale prom night. Only I feel sorry because i got fever that night, ruin my night out and his… I bet he is going to scold me if he sees this. Well… I don’t think I got anything I could say. All I know is that, I’m the happiest girl in this world now with my prince charming!! So…the end!!!!!!!

TAKE ME AWAY!!!

2008-12-19T07:28:00.000-08:00

Maybe I ask for too much
Maybe I shouldn’t believe in anything
I don’t know where I am now
I don’t know which road to take
Where am I supposed to go?
Where am I supposed to be?
Is there anything that I could do?
Anything that will change the past
My past that I can’t run
A past that I can never forget
A past that will hunt me forever
Where could I run to?
Where can I hide the truth?
Take my somewhere I don’t know
Somewhere far away
Somewhere away from this pain
Bring me home to heaven
Bring me home to my place
Where are the angels to guide me?
Please take away my emotion
Take away my soul
Take away everything
I don’t want to be alive anymore
This pain is just driving me crazy
Take me away
Take me far away
I don’t want to be here
I hate to be here
Take me away
From this pain and sadness

please just stop

2008-12-17T04:13:00.000-08:00

Take away my tears
Take away my smile
Take away my laughter
If that could make him smile
Don’t make him suffer
Don’t make him cry
Please don’t take him away from me
I’ll do anything to make him stay alive
No more scolding he shall take
No more suffering he shall hold
Make him cry and smile to us
Make him talk his soul
Make him open his heart
To my family and me
Please save him from this suffering
I’ll do anything you please
Take away my life
If that is what it will course
Take away my smile and laughter
Take away my emotion
If that will make him better
Stop making him suffer
Stop making feel the pain
He never lies or cheats
Please just make him happy everyday
I’ll pay the price
I’ll pay it all
Just please I beg you
To save him from this
And not make him suffer anymore

Please listen to my plead

2008-12-17T04:06:00.001-08:00

Today my life may end, knowing what I will cause if I’m not here. But do you every listen to me? Many people told me that you always listen and help those who are in need in your way. But today I see, you aren’t helping me at all. He is a good man, he help others and never really ask anything in return, he save his money to the point that he himself doesn’t have any. I’ve seen him suffer like that, I know I’m using his money in time which I like to spend…but I don’t spend that much do I? He never cheat and never lie without a good reason, not only you giving him this pain, you are also making things worse for him. The pain on his leg is making him suffer, the job that he has is making him work harder den any other people in his office. Tell me what am I suppose to do to make you listen? What am I suppose to scarify to make his life better? I know he is suffering, paying bills and someone college fees. I know he can’t really pay for mine because it will make him suffer even more! Tell me…aren’t you not helping him? I thought you always help the good? Where is that? Why that isn’t applied to him? Please make him happy; please make him enjoy his life more den cursing each day. Please make him smile truthfully, please I’m begging you. He is my father; I don’t want to see him suffer…please help to make his day be a brighter day. Help him fight against his sickness that weakens him almost every day. Please make him smile brighter, let him enjoy. I beg you to hear my plead, send your angels down to protect him, please I beg you for tomorrow, please don’t make him suffer anymore.

for my best friends

2008-12-13T05:57:00.000-08:00

To: my best friends!

An oath to swear
A sight to be remembered
No longer there was hope
For our final departure
Many years we’ve been together
Sitting and waiting in the hall
Welcoming the sun arise
To start our day in delight
No matter who comes between us
We stand strong and firm
But now I hold your hand
Holding back my tears
Smiling gently at you
Hoping to never leave
This perfect memory
I swear upon my name
That I’ll be there for you
No matter what future may bring
I promise
I’ll always be there for you

From, kitty cat

2008-12-13T05:29:00.000-08:00

No matter how far she ran,
No matter how far she goes.
It seems that she can never run away from her world
A world full of darkness and fear,
A world with no light or hope to spear,
Sitting in that darkness praying for help
Maybe she’s just an unlucky child.
A dream to be a princess,
A dream to be free,
To be wild and happy,
But in her world it no longer exist.
Only chains and strings pull her down.
And angel who was once flies freely in the sky,
Giving love to mankind
But now the angel finally turns insane
Trap between the greed of mankind
Only the thirst of hatred she desire
Only the blood of mankind she love
Their screams make her laugh
Their tears make her smile
Their pain makes her glow
But every single blow she hit
Every single soul she took
Her tears flow down into earth
Knowing her insanity will never stop
For she was an angel
Who turn into a devil.

2008-12-13T05:27:00.001-08:00

No longer will the light shine
No longer shall the day be bright
No longer shall a true smile be shown
No longer shall the angel sings
A life full of hate
Thoughts full of revenge
As the day passes by
The stronger he gets
The hate for human being
The thirst for blood
He howls into the night
Seeking for his next victim to be killed
A normal instinct of life
To kill or to hunt

2008-10-27T05:50:00.000-07:00

No longer i could smile
No longer i could laugh
No longer i could cry
I wonder at night
I rule the streets
With my followers
I haunt those innocent
Who happpen to be in the wrong place
At the wrong time
Their plead
Their tears
No longer had effect on me
Their cries
No longer have a place in my heart
Their innocent soul slowly fades
As their blood flow
No longer i could feel pity
No longer i could cry
No longer i have emotions
For my humanity had been long gone

should i fall again??

2008-10-10T23:27:00.000-07:00

Never thought that such thing could happen in my daily life. Every time I think about my life is going to end. Thinking that I’m loosing myself day by day. Thinking that I no longer belong in this world anymore. Thinking that my friends are slowly leaving me behind because my freedom is no longer my. But today is really different. A young boy with the beautiful look step into my life one more time. I told myself that I never want to believe him but his look and his words took my breath away and leaving me in a thick cloud full of dreams. He step into the house holding his bag asking permission to stay one night. My eyes didn’t want to meet his but he exchanges look. His eyes light shining eyes look into my. How can I resist? His dances, his moves attract me around the house. I should just stay in my room and avoid him but his voice in the hall just take my hart beat away. His handsome eyes and kind character took my balanced off. He lied to me once but now he is the more than perfect guy that anyone want to have. Those dark tan skin, should I fall again?

I'm sorry...

2008-09-28T05:53:00.001-07:00

Another day, another day life. Another life is taken away and another life is born. Why is this world so boring? If not something is destroyed, then somewhere is in danger. Every different thing happen in daily life but there is nothing that is so interesting. I want to be a pilot, I want to be an artist, I want to be a singer and more. All those just normal people dreams. But what is my dream? I know I said b4 that I want to be the world famous pianist, but is that really my dream or is it just a dream that was plant in my head since young. I don’t know anymore, I just don’t feel like bother anyone about me. Everyone seem to have their own problem. Haiz…I just don’t know anymore. Just give up? Just go with the flow? But where is the freedom in anything? Where am I sippose to smile and laugh if it is not what I like? I don’t really think I doing the right thing anymore. The more I grow up, pieaces of me starts to fade…the longer I live, the more I’m acting not like me anymore. Until the day I loose myself, all I can say I’m sorry for all the thing I do….

Should I act forever?

2008-09-28T03:35:00.000-07:00

Nothing really change in my life. I’m still the old me, who goes around smilling. The pain I’m having inside could never stop bleeding. I smile in pain but no one notice. I talk happily, avoiding people noticing me. But am I doing the right thing? Am I suppose to hide away my pain? I smile to shake away my pain. I laugh and have fun to chase those pain away. But everytime the night come, alone in my dark room. Those pain just burst out from me. I curled like a ball and cover myself up. Crying and sobbing my tears away. I hate the sun rise because I know have to be happy again. Those anyone in this world know the real me. I help people, I’m just like any other kids but I just cant help it. Maybe the pressure had push me to the end. Maybe I’m just different, I don’t really know anymore. Am I going to just smile forever? Am I going to act forever? Or should I really show the real me? Ah!! I don even know who is the really me!!!!

Black Prince

2008-09-20T08:32:00.000-07:00

you were called the white prince
and the famous quaterback in school
your dashing eyes staed into mine
those beautiful eyes
shakespears was right
love doesn't need a reason
i was not popular
and was always bullied
then one day you called
to the prom just me and you
i dressed up beautifully
waiting for your arrival
you held a rose and kiss my hand
i know i'm in heaven
you took me into the hall
my heart pound even faster
as you smile
but cold dashing water fell from above
the smell of rotten eggs
laughther filled the room
your evil grin woke me up
a slap on the face and the fantasy is gone
no longer a white prince
but a black prinve instead
i'll never forget that
cold heart of yours
that i'll crush one day...

i'm me!!!

2008-09-19T21:05:00.000-07:00

There isn’t anything I could do… but my whole world came to and end in one second. Everything look perfectly fine in people’s eyes. But what to you really think? Parents should know everything about their child. But in my life…I don’t know anyone who could understand my feeling. Everything they see is the happy me. They will never understand my feeling. Could there be anyone in this world who can see through me? I try to make them to see who I really am but even my parents couldn’t understand! All they do is blame me. All they think is about themselves. What is it the real me? When can I be me? Do I have to act forever? A life to furfil other people dreams. Do I have to cry to let you see I’m sad? Do I have to be angry to let you see I’m in no mood? Why can’t anyone see me for who I am? Is it really hard to understand me? Am I not good enough to be seen? Stop making me like someone else! Stop comparing me with someone else! Stop calling my name but see me as someone else! I’m not him! I not like him! I’m not smart, I’m not strong, I’m not that happy like him! Please see me for who I am! Please see me as me and not the person you wish to be in me...